The Change-Up :)

Anxiety. Anxious. Fear. Scared. Excited. Worry. Anguish. Stress. Pain. Angst. Cold feet. Freaking out. Creep out. Panic. Fright. Phobia. Unease.

How come she feels all these for him? ♥

It's not his fault, really :') I love him with all my heart, you know I do, but you remember his family growing up. They were a mess. They had nothing. His entire childhood was spent looking over the fence, wanting a better life. So he scrimped and saved and worked four jobs at once and put himself through school and built a better life for himself. I've always loved that about him.


No one ever gave him anything. The problem is, now that he's got a good life, he can't turn it off. He's still looking over the fence, wanting something even better, a second house, more kids, a faster car, a bigger promotion, whatever it is that he thinks will finally make him happy.



No, I know, I should be grateful and I am. I guess all I'm saying is that he is so focused on what he doesn't have that he can't see what he does. And how long can you stay married to someone who is incapable of ever being happy?

All I Want For Christmas Is New Year's Day ;

 HURTS ♥  

Rocketeer.

You know you are perfectly in love when you are looking back at old photos and they make you smile :) 

Turn up the love, lets turn up the love! Turning up the love.

Truthfully, I guess all I need right now is a time by myself. To pick myself up again. To get a grip of life again and I know I can get back on track. I need to heal. Oh, before I forgot. I am on the mood to spring clean my room. So, I have like new clothes to give away as well. Any one of you who wants dress, tees, shorts, let me know, I have tons of them which have never even be worn before. I no longer want them. So, you can all come and collect them yourselves at my place. If no one wants them, I'll just send them to the orphanage. Took photographs of it and my friends thinks I am crazy. They're wondering why am I giving away when the price tag is still on and I don't wanna sell it. It is new. I assure you that. Short to say, it is just ; I no longer want them lah :) 

I knew You Were Trouble When You Walked In. Well, shame on me now.

Okay, where do we begin. Lets Begin Again. Now we're laying on the cool hard ground huh? Lets pretend that only you and I exist in this world. Lets crawl up and cuddle in each others arm. Lets lay on the cool grass outside, near the hill , balling up in each other's arms can we? Forget the world a little while and enjoy the warmth. 

Just you. Just me. Just us. Together. Inseparable. Forever. 

Results like these are the ones that make you strive harder in life. 

I pray that you miss me every single day you know? :) Anyways, the reason why this post is up today is cause' today is PMR results day :) Yeah, when you're fifteen here in Malaysia ; you take a major exam call PMR. So, the results were announced today. The thing is, there were 90 kids that scored straight Aces in CBN. Darn proud. I am a proud senior. However, things don't go well for this someone who is specifically close to me. Yeups, I am here to actually blog for him and seriously ; I wonder would he even read this. I know, he had been working really hard ever since Trials and it kills to actually see him not scoring straight Aces. I know he felt as if he had disappointed everyone in life by not proving himself and it sucks to see him this way. Tho, what I really want to tell him is that this is just the beginning you know. There are still way more important thing in life you need to achieve. How do I actually tell him that what really matters is who you are ten years from now. How much you earn in life. I really want him to know that a slip doesn't define who he is. It kills to actually seeing him getting through this. 

Have a little faith. Mitch Albom.

It honestly killed me when he told me he cried over his result. Awh, I know. I shall not be a hypocrite and tell you it is okay and things are fine. I've been where you felt. But what I really want you to do is restart. Rethink. It is okay hun. Honestly it is. Nevermind lah. It is just PMR you know. It is not gonna change a single fact that everyone of us still do proud of you no matter what. Chin up ; head high and middle finger higher. Time to walk the walk. Time to fuck the world. I can't help but to tell you that we have twelve more days and you would be in form four. Time would fly and before you know it, you would be sitting for your SPM. Let me tell you, I woke up today and I had missed calls from people and texts from a few others telling me they've scored. Came online, all your friends were busy posting up their results and all I seek for was your result. You were the only one I gave a copy of my PMR result to. *smirks* Deep down ; let me tell you ; sometimes, it takes a hug to make you feel better. Sometimes, it takes food to make you feel alright. Sometimes, it takes people to talk you out ; to make sure you're okay. But what I want you to know is ; time would heal. The wound would go off. But if you don't freaking forgive yourself right now and move on, you never will be okay hun. You never will. You gotta learn. Crawl back up. Like I said, life's hit you now. It is alright. Fucking get back up and yell ;

DEAR LIFE, you hit like a bitch. Restart. 

Tell life, you are done crying and game on :) Play this game. Work hard. Study hard. You are gonna succeed. Change your SPM result :) You really don't have time to regret. Life's too short yo! It would take so much more than all these. There are life out there. So much more than all these that you deserve. So, have a little faith and hold on! Start with a smile and inspire yourself. All in all, I can't wait to tell you I missed you and you are gonna be okay yeah? Don't be sad already alright? 

ME + YOU. ONE TIME. JUSTIN BIEBER. 

Tho I've walked the valley of the shadows of death, 

I would fear no evil. 

People like you shall rot and burn in Hell. 

-Frankenstein in Van Helsing ❤ 

FUCKING INSPIRED :)
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED! :D

Step It Up ;
KARA! 

A Body To Die For.

Hello hollow readers ; 

Your blogger is back once again. So, how are you holding up? Truth to be hold, it sucks to be me. What I meant was I can't sleep. I've got trouble sleeping. Something is real wrong with me :'( Teardrops. Thing is, my mind is exhausted and my body pleads for rest but then my mind would not shut down tho. Ugh. It sucks. Sometimes, when the bedtime comes, I lay there for hours. Sometimes, I just lay there for three hours ; look at the ceiling and let my mind start to wander away :'( Honestly, it sucks. Cause I used to enjoy sleeping. I mean, back then I can really sleep for 13 hours? 17 hours? 25 hours straight! You name it. I can really sleep cause' I really do enjoy it. So, why am I here? To rant about something new of course! So, if you are my loyal blog reader ; you would realize that in my previous post ; I went on a lunch date with one of my bestie ; Edwin Siew in Tian Yian Cafe in Miharja that I really did enjoyed myself. So, I told Guik Hua regarding it and pleaded her to tag along with me last Saturday! So, here are our lunch pictures tho :) 



LET ME TEACH YOU HOW TO FIESTA! 
THIS IS WHAT I CALL A SATISFIED LUNCH!

BA-NA-NA MISO CAKE :) RM 7.80 :D

My lunchie :) Rendang cheese rice.  
Now, thanks to him ; 
I am addicted to this :)RM 5.80 :)

Where Guik Hua and I sat. 

Where Edwin Siew and I sat. 

This is so MY table. 

Raveenaa's ♥

Left : Hazelnut Ice Coffee (Guik Hua's) 

RM 7.80 ;

Right :  Vanilla Milk Shake (Mine)

RM 7.50 ♥

My lunch partner! :) 

Tau Foo Rojak! 

RM 3.00 :) 

English Curry Rice :) 

RM 4.80 :D 

Hamilton Cheese Fillet Sandwich :) 

RM 5.50 ♥

So like yeah. I had a haircut today. Walked in and told the saloon lady, May I need a hair cut for school and I told her I wanted bangs. I used to have bangs and they look so lovely. Look at me now. Sighs. I look terrible as days goes by tho :'( How come I can't have perfect bangs like Beyonce's? :'(

I really wanna watch this movie by Chris Pine titled People Like Us :') Thing is ; people rated it 7/10. I really wanna watch The Blind Side by Sandra Bullock as well :') I love inspiring movies like these. Check the trailer out tho! :)

If you are reading this, I just want you to know to be safe and sound while travelling. Sappy but true. Hope you enjoy yourself in the trip and let me know when you're back, bestie. You know who you are tho. Honestly, can't wait to see whatchu got me from there tho.

People say ; You Only Live Once. YOLO isn't it? 

What this guy in the photo taught me is that ; 

“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.”
― Mae West ♥

Have only spoke once to you in life before and that was also during orientation tho :') You are one of the beautiful people I meet in life with great sense of wisdom in you. You're gonna go far kid :) It was such a pleasure knowing you in life tho ♥ Thank you for everything ;)

If fairy tales are real, then true love kiss do exist and so prince charming are real too :)

 Good day lovelies :D 

That is all the updates for now :)

I Dreamed A Dream ;

Les Miserable and Susan Boyle :)

You Are Everything, Everything That I've Ever Wanted :'(

Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, 

you're gonna believe them. 

And when you're fifteen ; feeling like there's nothing to figure out. 

Well, count to ten. Take it in. This is life before you know who you're gonna be. 

Fifteen. 

If I let you know ; I'm here ; For You :')

Maybe you'll love yourself ; just like I Love You ♥

Okay, here is the deal. Let me first confess my deepest, ugliest, inner, self fear. Yeah,  my phobias. The truth is, I am really scared to watch those ghost movies. Including those violence and murders movie, possessions. I just dislike them. They make me scare and I usually spook myself with images of it. So I rather not watch them and I really hate it okay? Don't ask me why. I just freak out every single fucking time I watch one. So, I usually back off and I rather pay my cash for movies like these! That keep me laughing the entire show. One that I would rant about here today is abso-fucking-lutely ; WHITE CHICKS! 

Dated these two today and they're definitely two piece of comedy tho! :) 
Awesome and amazing actors. 
Shall let the pictures do the talking for me yeah?

Among all scenes ; this is the scene I love the most.

 I laughed so loud like a fooking retard duh! :) 

I stumbled upon these and suddenly I stared at this photo for so so long. I swear I nearly teared. It was a scene from Friends with Benefits starring Justin Timberlake and Mila Kunis. Somehow, I envy those people who get to spend their time with you. It seems so hard to believe that three years just flew off that fast and I can't help to miss you more than ever now. It feels so hard to even get you out these days and it sucked most cause' I am really afraid of losing you. The fear would always be there if I ever lose you. Gosh, the most tiring job in the world would be to plaster a smile on your face. It exhaust me, tho I've promised to always keep you laughing. What happens if one day we ever woke up and we forget about each other completely? It cut me these deep to be wanting you these bad that now even breathing seems difficult you know. Sometimes, I just wish I am you. It would have been so much simpler. If only I was a mind reader. But I am not. I am just a girl. A stupid girl with her dumb imagination and I've got no clue as to what you think nor what you feel. Honestly, I love you more than what my brain can express. More than the songs I can sing to you. More than the words I can say :') Take good care of yourself tho ♥

Why? What have we got here? Definitely! Challenge accepted :) This signify freedom ♥ Should probably get one. Have been thinking hard of it lately tho to be fooking honest :) That is about it I guess? It is four in the morning. I need my beauty sleep. Plus, have lunch date with mum tomorrow. She is so going to kill me. Ugh. Good nights.
 Not bad, took an hour for this post tho ♥

HOLD ME ;

JAMIE GRACE FEAT. TOBYMAC ♥ 

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth.

 The truth is, people might forget you and your name but they would never forget how you made them feel :') 

People would never forget how you treated them seriously.

If it is true ; then it must be you.

 I'm in love with you and all these little things. 

I'm bulletproof ; nothing to lose. Fire away ; fire away.
Shoot me down ; but I won't fall. 
I AM MOTHER FOOKING TITANIUM :)
Hey lovelies. We meet once again :) So, sorry once again. I've put my blog on idle. Gosh. Back to updates. So what happened was, ever since crappy people around me have been telling me how soon the world is about to end, I decided what other time better than this to ask all my lovelies out to hang out? :) So, last Monday, I asked this special friend of mine to hang for lunch. Since he lives near there, I have got to drag him out. I know. So, let us just have the pictures to do the talking for me, okay?

 Curry cheese bacon was it? I forgot the name of it. Ugh. But it was really good tho :) His :)

 Black Pepper Hor Fun (Mine) ><

  Hot Hazelnut Milk ; RM 6.50 

 Tau Foo Rojak ; RM 3.00  

You've got that One Thing :) 
 The food here in Tian Yian Cafe, Taman Miharja, Maluri is just brilliant man! Okay, the ideal fact that the last time I was there eight months ago. I was really craving for their food alright :) So, final photo of the day :) My lunch partner of the day is lovely ;) Seriously, we both can really talk man and I mean it. We were freaking talking for three hours straight none stop. Should probably give us an award or something. We were just crapping, gossiping, laughing along the way. All conversation shall be sealed in private and confidential :) *smirks*

Can you feel that yeah? We're paying with love tonight. 
We're obviously walking down the hall of fame. The only one shot I have with him. Okay, it sucked I know. Big time. We both look weird. So, after we paid for lunch, I realized it was still early cause I had to meet the J's in Times Square at four. I forced him into packing a cake for the younger brother at home since he told me the lil' one was alone at home. So, went back his crib with him to waste time a little while. Here you go. All the selca's :) First two shot is with Edward , ze older brother and the third one is with Justin the youngest one :) Final photo is ze skyline from his crib at the fifteenth floor ♥

Don't You Forget About Me. 
When I walk on by ; Would You Call My Name? ♥
I took the train and boarded them and met my three leng zhai's in  Times Square. Like yeah. It was probably four thirty when they grabbed me. They were looking for jobs. These people too free after SPM. Once I caught on hold with them ; we hit H&M. The truth was, it was my first visit there tho. Yii Meng promised me we would go together, so it was our first visit there. Been waiting for the moment too long cause' I waited for him to finished his SPM tho. So, there were lotsa pretty clothes that I love. Took a skirt and a dress and walked over to the fitting room and had a shock of my life when I see the friggin line so long weih! :'( Decided to return a little later at night. So, we went to the highest floor to the guy's department store and gosh. The clothes there were amazing. Tho, I kinda liked Zara better? Then, I saw this pretty hoodie and that was it! The major turn on in the guy's department store. We started photo shooting lah :) Then we were interrupted :'( Promised will never ever return. Ugh. Darn sad okay. We were so high weih that time ♥ I swear you can really find pretty hoodies at the men department tho.

And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while. Cause' you're amazing ; 
Just The Way You Are ♥
I feel like laughing when I am typing this. So, Wilson was immitating Fat Amy from Pitch Perfect and he kept making me laugh. I laughed so loud ; when people walked by stared at us. I laughed so hard until my tears flew out. Dear lord. Hey! Guess what Fat Amy's real name is? REBEL WILSON! :) I love her. She's just simply amazing and fabulous for loving herself the way she is! :) Born this way, yo! Then, these three kids told me to head off for dinner. I was stunned at first cause' it was so freakishly weird they have dinner at freaking six p.m. when I usually have mine ten at night? Or am I the weird one? We exited Lot 10 and walked to Wong Kok, Pavillion for dinner. A shot with Yii Weng , The Inspector before signing off Lot 10 tho. With the X'mas tree!

That is when the taxi man ; turn on the radio and a Jay-Zee song was on. 
A Jay-Zee song was on!

We walked all the way to Wong Kok and decided what we wanna do after dinner. Dear good Lord knows these three people had to send in their resume. No wonder we had to choose a place with a Wi-fi on :) A picture of me and Wil J :) For putting up all the dramas with me. For loving me as a sister. Ngaww, thanks for being just you and thanks for never failing me. Ever. So, I had my all-time-fave as tea drink only since I ate a lot during lunch. Was quite satisfied that I finished my lunch for the first time ever. I always waste food by not finishing them. We had our J's daily updates and kept talking until we realized it was already seven pm :) For being known as the HALFWAY CABUT GANG ; WE PLANNED AND WENT KARAOKE UNTIL MIDNIGHT. I never knew karaoke in Red Box , Low Yatt can be so exhausting. We were jumping, yelling, screaming, dancing all in one lah! (: Trust me, it was Hell of A Day! 

A picture of my three leng zhai's in Wong Kok Pavillion. Forced them into a shot tho. 
Gosh, they're darn stubborn :P

BOTH ARE MY PARTNER-IN-CRIME OF THE DAY :) 
Outfit I put on for the day! 

I am like freaking in the mood to refurnish my room. So, going on a spring clean alone. Mmhmm. How's my life going on? I've been surviving tho. Exhausted. Tired. Barely breathing but life goes on. 

Just to clear things out ; honestly. It doesn't matter whatever shit people talks about you in life. Hold you head up high and keep on walking the walk. What is the point of giving fucks about what people have to say about you? They are not God to even be legal to judge about you. Tho, I must say, to those out there who only knows how to spread rumors about people ; underestimating people ; you are darn lifeless. To actually talk bad about others before criticizing yourself is just ugly. No, scratch that. You don't know how much you actually hurt somebody when you freaking make a hurtful FALSE statement about somebody. Keep on looking down, bring out the worst in me. I'll have these little faith in life to fight you back. Someday you're gonna be just a simple no one and all you ever gonna be in mean. So, screw people LIKE YOU! I promise I'll just get back up and stand against bully like you :) I fucking promise! 

Cause' when I finally hugged you ; it hit me hard of how much I've missed you :'( 

Titanium ;

David Guetta feat. Sia .

Xoxo ;

Raveenaa Talks The Talk.