No more struggles.

You know I like you. 

I like that feeling that I get when I am with you. 

I like that feeling as if I belong to somebody.

 That I belong to you and you give me those gitters that I get in my tummy that gets me feeling this way. 

I have always loved the way your eyes whenever they looked at mine. I've always adored the way we looked at each other and I've always felt as if your eyes could actually look into my soul. People say that our eyes are the window to our soul. Is it true? But why do 

I only feel connected to you and not other people?

I have always loved the way your eyes whenever they looked at mine and I had always felt as if your eyes could look deep into my soul. People say that our eyes are the window to our soul. Is it true? Why 

do I only feel connected when it comes to you?

I

You know. Call it a dream. Call it a vision. 

I have always looked at us and wondered 

how things might work out between us. 

How would ever get things done?

 And I know, that you keep on 

insisting upon telling me that YOU are here. 

That YOU are here to stay forever and more. 

But I always let these little insecurities get to me. 
And I cannot help but to overcome them. 
Like what if we are married down the road together, YOU think I am such a boring person.
Like what if a person like you, 
can find someone so much better than ME. 

  What if you no longer find me attractive?
Like you used to.
Like maybe I am not that pretty after all?
That, I do, have flaws.
That I am NOT that perfect after all. 
That you've discovered. 
What happens then?

What if you stopped loving me? I know. 

There is just a demon inside of me and I have 

always knew that I don't deserve being happy.

 I have always knew that you, of all people, 

deserves someone better. Someone better than me. 

That with a status quo like yours, you do deserve a better standard and a better living. A better and prettier girl than me, at least. But, why do this 

heart of mine, yearns so much for you?

Like, if I were to wake up in the middle of the night, crying, would you stay the night up with me, comforting me? Or would you just sleep away? Like after years of seeing me with scars and stretch marks, would you still love them? Like as much as you love me? Or would you pack and run away? Would you ever do that to me? Pack my heart in your suitcase and just leave. Carrying all my dreams of us being together? Tarnishing every memories that we have. 

Would you?

Never felt like this before.
Are we friends? Or are we more?
As I'm walking towards the door.
 I'm not sure.

But baby if you say, you'd want me to stay,

I'll change my mind.

   I want you.   

Boy, you don't know how I really feel.

Since you've been away. Oh, baby.

Any chance that you could take my call?

You've been saying you don't wanna talk. 

But, it is cool. 

I've been thinking about you all day long. 

Hoping you pick up your phone. 

 

Tug-Of-War

The truth was that she killed herself to spare

herself some pain. She didn't want to see you

 getting worried for her anymore and she no

 longer want you to go through this pain with

 her. All she ever wanted was for you to be 

happy. All she ever wanted was to see you

 HAPPY. 

The ugly truth is the word "I love you"

 is being abused these days.

If you are able to look at someone in the eye ; 

and tell them that you truly love them in spite ;

After all the fights, the yelling , the painful moments, the verge of breaking moments ;
 you have no idea how special you are.

One word ; wait till' you meet The One and you are sure that he/she is worth the wait.

Look them in the eye and whisper those three words. 
It is then you would realize that you really mean them. 

That it is no longer a joke anymore. 
That this isn't any puppy love anymore :] 

So, wait. 
Good things come to people who wait <3

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

-Kelly Clarkson

She lied. That's the ugly truth

You are a human. You're bulletproof. 

If I was about to take a knife and cut you right 

now, you'll bleed to death and there was 

no way it is gonna make you stronger. 

Get it? Wake up and face reality. 

Barney: I realized that I'm searching, searching for what I really want in life. And you know what? I have absolutely no idea what that is. #HIMYM

-How I Met Your Mother-

Little Wonders ; Rob Thomas. 

10 Signs YOUR Guy Is Cheating On YOU :)

A polyphonic prostitute <3

10 Signs YOUR Guy Is Cheating On YOU :)

1. You're Having Less Sex

If he is getting it on the side, you are bound to notice a decrease in the amount of time you spend together in the sack. Less sex is a sign that something is wrong in your relationship ;)

2. He's Done It Before

I'm sure you have heard this common expression:

 "Once a cheater, always a cheater." 

That may not always be the case, but it became a popular saying for a reason. If your guy has been caught cheating in the past - on you, with you, or on a past girlfriend - you might be at risk.

3. He Avoids Certain Places

If you keep trying to plan a date to a certain restaurant or location and he always comes up with some reason not to go there, you might have a problem!

He could be trying to keep you and another woman separate by only taking you to specific places; if he takes two women to the same restaurant, someone might ask questions.

4. He says he needs the "Space"

A lot of guys need space in a relationship, as do a lot of girls. But if he has gone overboard from the start to make it known that he wants excessive space, you might have a cheater.

Cheaters will often develop a pattern early on to convince you that talking on the phone every day or seeing each other more than twice a week is "clingy," all in an effort to maintain plenty of time for his on-the-side shenanigans.

5. He's Secretive About His Phone/Internet Use

A fair amount of privacy is a good thing, and it's important to respect it, but if he's shady about his browser history (in more than a "porn is awesome" way) and acts extra secretive about the messages on his cell phone, it might be time to worry. If he didn't have something to hide, why would it be such a big deal?

6. He Avoids Your Friends

When you offer to let him hang out with your buds, and he refuses every time, it's a bad sign. If he gets close with your friends, they'll be more likely to recognize him and possibly catch him out on a date with another girl. He's covering his tracks.

7. His Grooming Habits Change

If you've been dating for a while and it's not a special occasion, he's usually scruffy and messy-haired, like Robert Pattinson and then you suddenly notice a new supply of cologne, a clean-shaven face, and fancy hair gel. Danger, girls!

If he's banging someone new on the side, he'll be putting a lot more effort into his appearance than he would for just you.

8. The Rumor Mill is Buzzing

We all hate the rumor mill, but it is good for some things. If you hear through the grapevine that he's seeing another woman, he probably is. Run!

9. He's Learned New Tricks

Mixing it up in the bedroom can be a great thing for a relationship, but if he starts getting really freaky in ways you've never seen before, it could be a signal that he's picked up these tricks from another woman.

10. Physical Signs

Last, but not least, you notice the obvious signs: lipstick on his collar, another woman's perfume, hickeys, etc. The physical signs of cheating don't lie.

Red, the colour of the devil? 

Welcome Avril Lavigne to Malaysia! She is in KLIA! :D

Jealousy of girls. Hahaha :) 

You want me to be honest? Here is the #HonestyNight.

I ripped everything you gave me. I threw every gift you got me. I chuck away all the clothes I wore with you during our dates. I erased you off my memory. I cried each time I think of you. Sometimes, I still do dreamed of you :'( 

It's only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart away (:

G.L.A.M.O.R.O.U.S

Yesterday was my last day in Kasturi and I was so sad :'( Last Chemistry class :D Last Chemistry class. In school however, we were all tortured with Mr. Sivvakumar for History Form 4 and on Monday, we are all going to be tortured again with History Form 5. The thing is, I paid for the seminar, if I didn't, I would have skipped it for real. Last Friday, I went lunch in McD with Isabel :) 

After lunch, I went Add Maths class with Umaas in Martin, Pudu. I was late for class == After class, I went back to find isabel again in Secret Recipe in Central Market. I had  chocolate macadamia with hot white coffee :) Costed me RM 7.55 :D After Secret Recipe, Isabel and I walked to Kasturi and after last class of Chemistry with Freddy, I went home by bus and met this cute guy, my neighbour, Guna :D He is s cute but he has girlfriend already :S But, my claimed that she often saw him hugging his girlfriend in front of our house. 

Saturday morning, mum, me with both brothers went for lunch. I had economy rice. Hated it :X Came home and I slept off. Had nap until younger brother woke me up. Mum fetched me all the way to Pudu for four hours, hard core of Biology with Mr. Donald. I was with this SAB guy and Jonathan was on my right. Mum fetched me home too :) Geez, oh. I went to eat nasi lemak and red bean pau with Fanny :) Anyhow, ever since I reach home, I had not been foing anything other than talking nonsense, eating dinner AGAIN and watching television. I forgot! Facebook? Twitter? YOUTUBE! 

FACTS ABOUT LOVE <3

1. When someone remembers the things you say.

2. Finding out the person feels the same way as you do.

3. When you know someone can't live without you

4. That weird feeling you get when your excited and nervous at the same time.

5. Just because someone holds your hand... Doesn't mean they hold your heart.

6. When you want to be more then just friends.

7. That smile in the middle of a deep kiss.

8. When they call or text you right after you just saw them.

9. When you feel like your love will last till the end of the world.

10. The only person you need in your life is the one that proves that they need you.

11. When no one in the world can replace them.

12. When she loves you enough to take your shit.

13. When everything goes wrong.. But were still happy

14.The more you expect, the harder things are.

15. When your willing to make mistakes to be with someone.

16. A sad time is when someone you know.. becomes some you once knew.

17. You start to get hurt.. the moment you begin to care.

18. When you can't think of love without their name.

19. That one person that knows how to make you smile and keep you happy.

20. When you dont want anyone else to realize how amazing someone is.

21. Remember that an end signal... means a new beginning.

22. When someone smiles your way & unknowingly completes your day.

23. The best feeling in the world is loving someone and being loved back just the same.

24. Feeling lucky everyday when I'm with you.

25.love feels so good when its done right

Twist song - Love Aaj Kal ♥

Poker Face ;

Lady GAGA ♥

  

Don’t quit because something went wrong. Quit because you tried your hardest and nothing made it better.

‎''Are you free tomorrow?'' No, I'm fucking expensive.

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed, cause' you broke all your promises :'(

A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle

Girl: Slowdown. Im scared.

Guy: No this is fun. 

Girl: No its not. Please, its to scary! 
Guy: Then tell me you love me. 
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down! 

Guy: Now give me a BIG hug. 

(Girl hugs him) 

Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day:

A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant he would die.

I was reading this and tears streamed down my face :'( I started crying so terribly. Been feeling so emo these days and I could not even figure out the reason why :(

                                   

You go on your own way, I'll go your way too ♥

Read the line above again. Then, read this line, To me you are perfect. Well, know what? Don't ever find someone who you can live with. Find someone who you can live without :) 


I love you. You love me. We are a happy family. No, love does not work that way. Instead, relationships are all about tolerating each other, making compromises, adapting to habits you hate and talking things out time after time. It is like for an example. In an arguement, to me a guy should always let me win no matter whether I am wrong or right. Well, the issue is that, would you find someone like that Raveenaa? I might not tho :/ Love is some feeling you have for each other in the early stage. But after marriage? The feeling might no longer be there know? Feelings fade. People change. Even THE weather change. That is why arrange marriage last longer than a love based marriage know? Well, relationships is also about making compromises like where to eat, what to eat and whether we should have fine dining or mamak? Who would be the one paying? You? HIM or share? There is just so much things to be talked about, but at the end of the day, do you think you would be able to withstand him? Tolerate him for all his disgusting nature? A best example is where, I hate people when they talk to me, they do not look me in the eye or my face. They tend to stare at other place and that seriously make me feel like slapping whoever who does that. Do you even know how rude it is? 

People always tell me, with an attitude of yours, you might never find a guy that suits you. Infact I DON'T :) I think all woman should work and be depend on yourself :) Well, unless you find a super rich husband who gives you extra allowances every months RM 10,000 maybe? Well, I never understand certain woman. I mean, what is the point of them getting married if they would be the one looking after the family and the husband just sit at home all day long doing NOTHING! I think, you would live way better without a man like that at home know? I would like to just share a story with you :) It concerns me lately, as he is someone I know. 

Let us just assume this guy as T. T is married to this girl, H. Well, H is only 22 years old know? She got married at a very young age. The story was, this guy T he is a party kind of guy. He is 32 years old. He drinks alcohol a lot! The point is no matter how much he drinks, it is really hard for him to get drunk cause' his body is so used to alcohol since he is a young man. One night, he came home after partying real hard and T and H argued. They fought. H could no longer take it, she finally took the cane and whack the husband. T got pissed because that night, eventhough he went for a party, he did not consume any alcohol at all and when his wife took the cane and whacked the crap out of him, HE SLAPPED HIS WIFE :) 

Now, H left him and went back to her mother's house. When T finally made up his mind to compromise with his wife, he went to H's parents house to ask for forgiveness and bring back his wife. Turned out to be, H's mother she is making her own daughter to divorce this man. T told his mother-in-law saying even at the age of 21, his mother no longer hits him anymore and H whacked him with a cane for nothing. HE WAS NOT EVEN DRUNK that night! Such a pain in the ass this H's mother. I thought people usually comfort others to be back with the guy. Forgive each other. I mean, at the end of the day, you both are married with a daughter right? But, it seemed like H's mother would like her daughter and her son-in-law to divorce and T's mother, is looking after their daughter. Such a pity eh? All I can say is H, she is still young, she is not even mature enough to think know? She is an outgoing person but not her husband, T. 

I always take an example, siblings right? Your brother or your sister. Siblings stay together for so long! Perhaps 15 years of your life? You still tend to argue like that there is not tomorrow. What else is there to say if husband and wife? Relationships? When you argue or fight? 

To sum it all up, no relationship is always fight-free or argument-free. There will always be ups and downs to a relationship. I think you and your partner should always respect each other's opinion, be squabble over the daintiest things, and  love each other passionately like the world would end tomorrow. Don't give a damn what people think of you both as a whole, and certainly do not care about what people say. Because you know that at the end of the day, the whole world can turn against you, but make sure, you both are there for each other. Guys and girls, please know what is best for you alright? Never cheat or lie in a relationship cause' it really do last if things are meant to be. God only create one for each and every one of us :')

You deserve someone who knows how to make things up to you after hurting you. Not someone who is very good with just the word, "sorry."

Picture Of The Day :)

Standing up from left: Khairunisa, Elina and Raja Nur Hanani/Choi Hana

Sitting from left: Myself and Clare :)

Dancing to PUT YOUR HANDS UP BY 2PM :)