Hallucinate. Graduating.

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend hold your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and 

complete because you need not worry.

 You have a forever friend, and forever has no end.

Lets face it, we've changed, we've all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we've all gone our own directions. Hearts were broken, friendships were diminished, and new loves started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time together in our circle of friends; we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. Some of us are finding love while some of us are trying to let go. Even though we've changed we all know that even though we are all finding our own place in the world that when we find love, let go of a love, or when the tears fall, or a smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens nothing will change so much that we are all not friends forever.

Look, I am sorry. 

I am sorry for bothering you. I am sorry for all the texts I send you. I am sorry for talking to you the second you get online. I am sorry I keep asking if you're free to hang out. I am sorry I ask random questions. I am sorry that I ask about your life. I am sorry that I'm a bother to you. I am sorry that I always recite all those silly friendship quotes. But here's the truth. I am not sorry for any of those things ; I only did it because you are my friend. What I am really sorry for is that you don't realize how much our friendship means to me. I am sorry that I have a deep worry that this friendship won't last much longer. I am sorry I wanted to talk to you. I am sorry I wanted to get your opinions and advice on things. I am sorry I wanted to hang out with you. I just thought that is what friends did. I am sorry I was willing to do anything to get your attention. I didn't know being friends was too much to ask from you. I am sorry that I am now left with only memories of what used to be. Please do me one favor, when you see the tears gently falling down my cheeks, don't try to comfort me. I don't need a reminder of how I could always tell you everything, how you'd sit by me and just hold me while I cried. So please, if this is over, then lets just say our goodbyes and walk away and not look back, because I cant believe that a friendship I once held so dear to my heart is now fading to nothing. 

Now that is really what I am sorry for.

I miss you.

I miss the words you used to say. I miss the way you used to greet me in the hallways with that smile, and I would just blush and walk away.

I miss the texts you used to send me, making me smile, and making my life a little bit more happier.

You knew everything about me. It was just so easy to tell you everything, without getting judged.

I miss the nicknames, the sayings we had , and all the small little things you would do.

You always made me laugh, smile, and love you even more. You always knew when i was mad, upset or sad, and were always there. 

I miss the compliments, the facebook obsessions, but most of all, I miss the, "I love you."

I miss the advice. I could talk to you about anything, anywhere, anytime. We were so close.

I miss hanging out with you. I even miss the small things I used to hate about you. 

You told me you would never leave, we would always be best friends, and that you could never replace me. 

.. yeah well, you lied.

To be honest with you, I don't have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart; a heart that's aching to see you smile again.

Maybe not all friendships have to be saved. 

Maybe we're just meant to spend a certain part of our lives with certain people and then move on :'X

-Raveenaa-

9 DAYS TO LEAVING SCHOOL. LETS DO THIS FREAKOS <3

LETS PUT UP A KILLER GRADUATION SPEECH RAV :]

Just Breathe ♥

#nowplaying Wedding Dress by Tae Yang. This song can make me cry again and again man :'(

Anyhow, I am just here to let you people know about the game's result just now. CHELSEA, my baby WON :D 1-0 Good game. I can say that Harimau Malaya had improved a lot man. The goal was scored by DROGBA. Many said it was not counted as a goal cause' it was not over the line. Gosh, was browsing through my new feed on Facebook and Ian Logan making me laughing my ass off now. Look at his statuses.

*What's wrong with Torres's face? People cheer for him to buat muka emo =.= Go la  you torres, don't want to friend you already hmmph

*Good game Malaysia, very very good game, Great respect for your efforts

*Malaysia, you'll never walk alone ;)

*Let's start a rally against the Linesman that gave the goal today! Any suggestions on what to name the rally?

*ATTENTION! WE WILL START A RALLY THIS WEEKEND, IT'S CALLED "NO GOAL 0.0",  WE WILL MARCH FROM BUKIT JALIL TO THE LINESMAN'S HOUSE! WE WILL WEAR YELLOW AND BLACK!

This brother really cute lah :) He was injured, tore of his ligaments when he went to play football the other day. So, May God Bless You, get well soon anne :) Oh, his sister who is a model, super pretty man! Whoosh <3 But, she is married :) It is 00:20a.m. and my family members are not home yet. I went dinner with aunt just now at 22:00p.m. The weird thing is, we were both wearing red and shorts :) I was in white, she was in dark blue shorts. 

 Chicken Chop Rice RM 6.80 

Fried Dumpling RM 6.80

Was too tired. That I would upload all the pictures of food I had before in Paramount Kopitiam. Would make a new post out of it alright? Parents came home and said the Chelsea game was a heart-breaking game <3 Anyhow, slept early last night. is about it :)

*You know what sucks? Realizing that 

everything you believe in is complete and utter bullshit. -500 Days of Summer 

RaveenaaLingwei <3

Everyday I'm Shuffling~

Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
Well pay them with love tonight

It’s not about the money, money, money
We don’t need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag

Ain’t about the (ha) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.
Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

20/07/2011 Wednesday. 15:17p.m.

I went on Facebook today and saw her status continuously being updated. 

*The relationship between "ehem" and "ehem" ends today! Total 46weeks and 3days from 29.8.2010-20.7.2011. The reason of we break up is the problem of his loyalty. At the end he still blame me and say is my fault. He cheat me for 6 months! He such a playboy! This is the second time he betray me. I think some of u know what I me. whoever know his real personality,do u agree with me?

*To the girl,hope you will know his attitude well. You going to be the next victim! I am single and available :)

The moment I read those lines, I closed my eyes and I realised that my eyes were filled with tears. See, even now I am crying typing this. It is so sad as I always wonder why a girl is never enough for boys. In her case, I sincerely cannot believe how the guy had the heart to cheat on her. Yes, I know she has a lot of weaknesses, but she changed! Plus, it had nearly been a year you both together. It is weird, the next time you both meet? You expect to be strangers is it? I went through this too. Just ended my previous relation with this guy. We were together for three months. He had another girl too. So, it is always best to let go and wish him all the best in life and I hope they are blissful being together. Well, to this girl, I might not have the chance to speak to you in tuition these days, I really do hope you would be strong. Spill out everything you feel. There is no point on holding back everything. If you feel like crying, just cry. I seriously hope you are strong enough my dear :') Don't worry, you still have your girls with you.

School today I took the Chemistry quiz. Sat with Kit May, Nadhra and Hidayah in a table. We discussed all the way. After recess we had Taklimat for co-curriculum in hall. Then, we had Biology. Teacher caught me talking to Kit May and she asked us both to stand up and explain about the Hormonal Control of The Menstrual Cycle. We were both talking about copulation. Too bad, she dropped Biology tho. Clare was my Biology partner today and we were so turn on man. Our imaginations drove us wild and I was giggling all the way at the back. I am facing Premenstrual Syndrome(PMS) now. Some women may be more sensitive than others to changing hormone levels in their bodies during the menstrual cycle. Common physical symptoms are headaches,fatigue, feel bloated, boobs tenderness, abdominal pain, sleep disturbances and appetite changes including food cravings. The common emotional symptoms are tension, depression, confusion, anxiety, crying, oversensitivity and mood swings with alternating anger and sadness and lack of concentration. My question is how come guys never understand women when we are going through PMS? Come on, be tolerance and be nice to us just for that one or two weeks.

Had lunch with mum and younger brother today. Ordered mixed rice which cost me RM 5.00 and I just ate one mouth and pushed the whole plate to the side. Lost of appetite. Weird eh? During lunch, talked to three old aunties who aged 80++ They came and talked to me and chatted with them a while. Three of them. They had a shock of their lives seeing me this tall and so grown up already :) Mum sent us home today and guess what? I skipped co-curriculum activity today. I wanna go SMK Taman Desa International Understanding Day next Friday! 29th July 2011. K-Town Clan is going to perform. But it is too far and I didn't have a transport there! Plus, who is going to accompany me there? :( #ROSHANJAMROCK baby!   

QUOTES OF THE DAY 

*Love comes to those who still hope after disappointment, who still believe after betrayal, and who still love after they've been hurt.

*U can’t help who it is that u fall in love with. whether they’re older or younger, taller or shorter, completely opposite or just like u. ♥

*Morning beautiful, text me when you're awake (: One thing i miss the most ):

*If you are too busy to call, I'll understand. If you make me wait for hours for your reply, I'll understand. But if I stop caring, please understand.

*If you don't like me, i'm okay with that. just don't pretend that you do.

*Sometimes the right person for you was there all along, you just didn't see it because the wrong one was blocking your sight.

*Back To December lyrics

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why


Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time.

20/07/2011 15:52p.m. RaveenaaLingwei <3