Hallucinate. Graduating.

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend hold your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and 

complete because you need not worry.

 You have a forever friend, and forever has no end.

Lets face it, we've changed, we've all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we've all gone our own directions. Hearts were broken, friendships were diminished, and new loves started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time together in our circle of friends; we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. Some of us are finding love while some of us are trying to let go. Even though we've changed we all know that even though we are all finding our own place in the world that when we find love, let go of a love, or when the tears fall, or a smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens nothing will change so much that we are all not friends forever.

Look, I am sorry. 

I am sorry for bothering you. I am sorry for all the texts I send you. I am sorry for talking to you the second you get online. I am sorry I keep asking if you're free to hang out. I am sorry I ask random questions. I am sorry that I ask about your life. I am sorry that I'm a bother to you. I am sorry that I always recite all those silly friendship quotes. But here's the truth. I am not sorry for any of those things ; I only did it because you are my friend. What I am really sorry for is that you don't realize how much our friendship means to me. I am sorry that I have a deep worry that this friendship won't last much longer. I am sorry I wanted to talk to you. I am sorry I wanted to get your opinions and advice on things. I am sorry I wanted to hang out with you. I just thought that is what friends did. I am sorry I was willing to do anything to get your attention. I didn't know being friends was too much to ask from you. I am sorry that I am now left with only memories of what used to be. Please do me one favor, when you see the tears gently falling down my cheeks, don't try to comfort me. I don't need a reminder of how I could always tell you everything, how you'd sit by me and just hold me while I cried. So please, if this is over, then lets just say our goodbyes and walk away and not look back, because I cant believe that a friendship I once held so dear to my heart is now fading to nothing. 

Now that is really what I am sorry for.

I miss you.

I miss the words you used to say. I miss the way you used to greet me in the hallways with that smile, and I would just blush and walk away.

I miss the texts you used to send me, making me smile, and making my life a little bit more happier.

You knew everything about me. It was just so easy to tell you everything, without getting judged.

I miss the nicknames, the sayings we had , and all the small little things you would do.

You always made me laugh, smile, and love you even more. You always knew when i was mad, upset or sad, and were always there. 

I miss the compliments, the facebook obsessions, but most of all, I miss the, "I love you."

I miss the advice. I could talk to you about anything, anywhere, anytime. We were so close.

I miss hanging out with you. I even miss the small things I used to hate about you. 

You told me you would never leave, we would always be best friends, and that you could never replace me. 

.. yeah well, you lied.

To be honest with you, I don't have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart; a heart that's aching to see you smile again.

Maybe not all friendships have to be saved. 

Maybe we're just meant to spend a certain part of our lives with certain people and then move on :'X

-Raveenaa-

9 DAYS TO LEAVING SCHOOL. LETS DO THIS FREAKOS <3

LETS PUT UP A KILLER GRADUATION SPEECH RAV :]