Try.

It is four am when I am writing this post. It is raining super heavily outside, and I have to be up at seven in the morning for a jog with Virosha tomorrow. God, save me. I am writing this right after the Arsenal v Liverpool game. End result was 1-3, 3 being Liverpool won. Writing this part is essential because there are 3 things I have to clarify on my blog. 

One, dear you, the football match would not have mattered probably 10 years down the road. So, please do not get too worked up over it. I would not even probably remember the name of the players, but thank you. 

For always teaching me and imparting as much knowledge as you can to this nerdy lawyer, just so she could catch on football as much as you do. Callabos might be an exception because he is cute. I have always felt that it is not what you want to do alone, but more towards what you want to do TOGETHER that matters, and watching football is definitely one of it.

Second, it mattered to write on this post tonight because to my surprise 29 persons came back with feedback on the previous post. But it is so crucial to highlight THIS. The person I've been sharing on my previous posts are nothing more than a good friend of mine. I agree. I know what you are thinking.That I don't write about all of my good friends, but I guess you just have to click with me in a certain way or inspire me, for me to just write about you. If you actually know me, you would know that this is the truth.

He just inspires me to write and to my surprise I write so well about him. Anyways, I'll drop a major hint on the type of boys that I like, dark skin, bearded and tattoos are so my type. This boy doesn't have any of these. He is fair, with no beard, and zero tattoos. 

Anyways this brings me to the second out of the three things I want to say today. This guy is just a really close guy friend. Nothing more, nothing less than that. Do me a kind favour to just understand this part. At least be convinced that I am writing this out. Anyways, the second thing I want to share is the fact that I would be eternally thankful to you for making me open up the story about all of my battle scars. There had been people who had asked before you, but never have I once shared them. 

But with you, everything comes easy. 

Here comes my deepest form of apology for making that story up. I really got you, didn't I? *evil smiles* And nope, I would never kill myself over a guy. But I guess the Bangladeshi part and the clorox story actually got you so good that damn, I actually said I adore you, to you! But, thank you for that Retriever story too. These are battle scars we would carry for the rest of our lives and one that I would be comfortable sharing from now on, thanks to you. For sharing the importance of psychology to networking, how can someone so alike, been so far from away my life?

The third thing is the fact that do note that on all my labels of "New Friend", they are all dedicated to you. Of course, you haven't got the chance to read any of my blog post yet but when you finally do and I know, I would be killed over them, you may want to spare me a day, so I can invite all of my dearest readers over for my funeral. Smirks. But really. The video call below was made after 14 days of knowing you and I think, it is so crucial that I actually got to tell you that it is actually very hard to get you on the line, so whenever I do, I appreciate the very limited time that I have. Whatever said and done, Sureen's convocation was over today. I would have never had pull the stunt off that I did today if it wasn't for me crying and screaming over the phone. Thank you for being 223 km away from Ipoh where I am at and you were at work. Who works on a Saturday, macha? But thank you, for hearing me out just on days I needed you most. 

I appreciate it. 

Forever and always, 

Till next time. 

Tried making you sit still, but you showed me your legs picture instead. 

Always Remember Us This Way :)

The caption reads, "I am actually really nervous I wanna die".

The selfie was captured moments before he walked in and I cursed myself under my breath. So, it is Wednesday and it is four in the afternoon and 

I am convincing myself that yesterday was honestly a dream. 

Truthfully, before I start on anything. Many of you asked what make up I put on that night for dinner. You'll be damn surprised that I opted for a bare face and just my bindi and a pair of white studs. Some of you kind souls came to drop by messages on my Instagram saying I look pretty, thank you really. I am not that pretty in person yet it really meant a lot to me. I am just any other average girl next door that you see. 

Anyways, I refused to put on make up because I thought if I am going to see this person for a while, I rather have him be surprised at seeing me putting make up on rather than when I take them off, right? 

Anyways, lets go into business. 

So last night. I swear, I am all smiling writing this even when in truth, we both just had dinner and talked. I've been on almost 17 to 18 dates but this boy makes me so nervous that I was actually cursing myself once I was there questioning myself, must I actually get through dinner with him. I could have any other person over for a casual dinner but nopeeee, you Raveenaa just HAD to choose the toughest boy of them all.

Surprisingly, I was early even when I left home in a rush and our friend here had class. I went to the restaurant and got us seats and quietly waited. That was when a waiter came and started a conversation with me. Deep down, I was so nervous I just wanted to run into the toilet and cry my eyeballs out. I know, many of you must have been like, wow. 

You are a criminal lawyer, and yet you're afraid of this boy?

Well, trust me. This person has an aura and vibe to him which I really cherish. Anyways, fast forward story. After almost 20 minutes waiting, there he was. He walked in with his short black hair slicked backwards in his grey t-shirt, and his James Dean look in his eyes. Damn dreamy. 

I screamed to myself in my head. And there he was casually walked over to me and pull me in for a hug and took his seat across me. 

We took our seats and placed our orders. That was when we began chatting away. It was half way through dinner that I realized that this person who sat across of me and I are so similar in so many ways. There were so many things we spoke about. Games, chess, family, memories. But there was this one act that he did that really hit home. It was when he carried his spoon that I actually realized, this boy is a leftie. Remember what I've been preaching about falling in love with a left handed? Damn I am so observant, I deserve an award. I swear. 

"It's poker, he can't see it in my face, but I'm about to play my Ace".

-Taylor Swift

There were so many bits and pieces of last night that I want to carry with me for eternity. But really, the best people in life are free. There was a moment in that two hours long, that I thought to myself that I really got to hold this boy's hand someday and damn it would hurt me so much to let go. Before we realized anything, the clock struck 11 pm and we both had to leave. Thank you for staying so far away, anyways *rolls eyes* But honestly, I don't want to ever forget about anything that happened last night. Whether it is the small talks or the walk to the car or the time when we leaned against his car outside Daboba. There were so many things to remember about this person that I fear I would be attached. 

"I've been The Archer, I've been the Prey".

-Taylor Swift

Before we bid goodbyes, I wanted a photo to remember the night by. 

The photo is horrible, I know. But who cares. We said goodbyes and I was so sad cause I wished I could ask him to just pause time and asked him not to go. To just stay because I think I could die in this moment. 

Jokes, but really lets see where this takes us both. Till next time okay? 

Oh, and if it mattered, dinner place was at The Brew House. 

There are 5 branches of Brew House in Cheras, it is for you to figure which one is it. Smirks. He does not even know how precious he is to me, with all these writings, but I guess it's fair to drop in a few messages once in a while to actually let him crack his head. So I said, 

Hey you, 

I know you’re only gonna read this in the am but I had a lot of fun today and I can never thank you enough. So I’ll see you really soon okay? Please travel safely and come back soon too :) Send me lotsa picture :) 

Hey,

I’m sorry cause this is really all new to me and you’re really damn precious. I promise you that you are. 

Goodnight and take care :)

My friends all had a good laugh reading it. Even I laughed. Because knowing myself to send such a text is almost impossible. I almost choked myself with socks. But really, this person, he is really damn precious. 

Where have you been, really?

; Fancy ; Twice

-Like chocolate ice-cream, 

my feelings are melting now. I fancy you".

And then, came YOU.

This post was written after you hanging up the phone with me after good 90 minutes talk with you. I am still in shock for opening up so much about all of the previous date stories. Thank you, for always checking in on how my day went or to share something that has happened to you at work. 

There are so many things I want to tell you, but you know how I adore not rushing things so this is me wanting to take things slow. But you are such an express train and I am Robin who is always fearing of commitments. 

When I told you on how much I appreciate honesty, I cannot thank you enough for always ensuring that I should never feel wrong for expecting honesty out of a friendship or a relationship. How do I even deserve you?

I can never thank you enough for coming into my life at such a time. Seriously. When everything is such a mess and you just miraculously step into my life and this is when, I really do know that I want you to stay. 

You told me that you promise that no matter what happens, you'll always stay and there would be nothing that would break this foundation of friendship that we share. You promised you would always find your way back to me and I cannot believe that it has been a week but this roller coaster ride had been crazy. But I want you to stay, forever, really stay. 

As crazy as everything else seems, I'll see you for dinner tomorrow and I'll write more. Oh and how I told you that I like how you are such an old soul? Look at the way you snap a selfie of yours v mine. 

And as crazy as everything else seems, and then came YOU.

I would be alright because you are here with me and that, 

I am in safe hands. I am, I really am. 

; Habibi , Sophia Akkara

Osaka Osaka (:

I'm writing this while songs from Vanakkam Chennai is being blasted behind me so I thought I should at least name this post that.

It's been 8 years and this is officially my 201th post loves! 

Who would have thought I would have kept the blog for so long. 

Some of you had chirped in the ideas of wanting me to write on law matters to educate the public on a certain point of law but then again. Hire a lawyer, damn. 

My two am selfies are the worst because it is when my eyebags would surface and the skin on my face would fail on me. It is exactly two months after turning 25 it makes me realize that this year is actually ending faster than we actually thought. And as crazy as that would have sounded, we are 12 days away from ending August 2019 seriously.

Writing this, I thought I should share a little about what I've been up to lately. I actually swore in my few posts before this that I was going to give up my dating applications but here I am, meeting new souls again. 

It is still rather new and fresh but I thought I should at least talk about this person. So never in my 25 years I thought I would have matched with a person, like you. Not in a bad way but more towards the fact that you and I are such different beings on complete different spectrum on planet. But I guess God has His plans and there He was putting you in my way. 

I do not know many things in life, but I do know that there are a certain feelings I wish to carry till the end of my life and you have made it in a certain way. From being so thoughtful, I can never thank you enough. 

A lot of people think being honest about how you feel is a bad thing but when I finally sat down with him over tea (yesssss my favourite meal of the day okay) and he split those curry puffs just to share them with me, 

I was in all smiles! 

I wanted to just pause at a certain moments as much as I can, just to cherish them. There you were babbling away on life and sharing about yourself and listening to what I have to say. Just listening to this chatterbox, I swear one day I'll drive you crazy and you would want to run away so far. For once in life, there was someone there who actually allow me to express what I was feeling and actually tell me that I should never allow other people EVER validate on how I feel about a certain things. 

And I swear, I can never find someone as nice as you. 

There would be one day, where I'll finally show you all of these writings and I hope you will show me your widest smile because I think I just found myself a new best guy friend in this small circle of mine. 

You're really nice to chill with. Good, clean, fun. 

-16/08/2019 

; Agar Tum Saath Ho, Tamasha :)