Cause' you can lose faith in yourself ; but never in them. NEVER IN THEM.

Cause they are my Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn ; part one and two. They are the LIMITED EDITION AND COMPLETE SERIES.

When Darkness Turns To Light It Ends Tonight ♥

So, what happened was mum came home after work in the evening and told me she has to go back work at midnight today. I rang up Keng Kwan and Wilson asking them to hang out tonight for a yumcha session. It turned out, Navinesh was also at Wilson's. So, we planned and promised to meet up at Wilson's at ten p.m. So, I drove all the way with mum and it only took me twenty minutes. Twenty fucking minutes all the way from Damai Perdana to Wilson's. Imagine me drifting :) To be honest, it was rather slow tho. So, when I reached Wilson's the house was dark. All lights were turned off. I called up Keng Kwan and he was walking towards me from Swiss Garden. So, we waited and when we met up, we started talking about The Walking Dead series :) Anyways, these two jokers were inside the house studying Accounts and Wilson's family were asleep. So, they were in the room. They turned out all lights.

Baby, can I be your everything? 

So, the four of us walked over to Pappa Rich for supper. You know why I love these three boys? Is that they never freaking complain whatsoever I put on my way to meet them. They never criticize you. They can even hug you and tell you how much they've missed you, beetch :) I missed them :( There were a lot of catching up done! Anyhow, we saw this doll near a rubbish trash nearby Wilson's :( They said this vodoo doll ate tuna one :O Back to my story, so, the four of us walked over to Papppa Rich in Bintang Walk. 

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer :)

This is the first shot we took once we were there. Act cute? :P So, we ordered food and these were what we ordered. Plus, as usual. We camwhored like divas. There were lotsa talkings, crapings, catching up, dramas. Even when Shang Herng called, I couldn't help but kept screaming I missed him when Keng Kwan was on the phone with him :) I laughed so so hard until my eyeballs cried out waterfalls okay? :) *DRAMA* Here you are ; ze pichas! 

 From left : White coffee ; mine. Milo Dinosaur ; Keng Kwan's. Third, chocolate ice is Wilson's and the last one is Mocha ; Navinesh's ♥

 The hor fun is Keng Kwan's. The toast bread is Wilsons cum Navinesh. Last but not least, the naan is MINE! 

MINE DARLINGS. MINE ♥

Blushing :) Am I in love? 

 That was what they asked me. 

Looking at my Facebook statuses and my Twitter posts. The answer is no. Do I look like I am in love?  

NO! I love you three, assholes. 

For being the closest J's to me. 

I love you :')

THIS IS A SHIT I FUCKING LOVE :) 

So, after supper. We paid the bills and it costed us RM 60.00 or so. We walked out and saw people fighting across the street. Standard lah, kepoci's. What we do? Stand and watch. Started walking round like headless chickens towards Pavillion to waste time. Walked into to get Keng Kwan's magazine and mummy called. We were so hyper. 

HONESTLY, THE THREE OF YOU DESERVED THE BEST GIRLS IN THE WORLD MAN. FOR BEING THE BEST FRIENDS #BFF EVER.

We walked Keng Kwan home and laughed the whole way. Like whackos man! After dropping by Keng Kwan, we sang A Night To Remember and When I Grow Up like no one's business on ze freaking road towards Wilson's house! We screamed. These two retards were scared of cockroaches. Screaming. Remember bra ; Babraless incident? Sports bra? Push-ups? Gosh. SHHHHHHH! Shit, I'm smiling like a fooking retard here. Darn horny lah you guys! Affected TOO MUCH by Samantha from Sex and The City 2 lah! Then, Wilson and Navinesh walked me over to mum. Reached home and had to do housework. It is freaking four in the morning naw and I am sitting and blogging. Gosh, the diarrhea incident D: Navinesh, sorry you had to always be my victim. Keng Kwan and Wilson never answer their GOD-DAMNED PHONE ONE! Gotta go. Older brother just back from clubbing. Changed my mind, not dying hair. Thanks to someone.

Regrets collect like old friend. Here to relive your darkest moments. I can see no way, I can see no way. And all of the ghouls come out to play. But it's always darkest before the dawn :) 

I know ; I'm ze worst photo editor of the year and I know I should win an award over it. But, hey. The countdown stops here I suppose? Tomorrow is the day ain't it? :) For painting our lives. I thank you for that. Seriously, I've got no idea what to type here brother :'( Ten years down the road, if you ever freaking forget our names, each and everyone of us, we would actually hunt chu down and kill you :) *Serious tone on* Take good care of yourself there. Look after your family okay? :) Studies ; everything start all over okay :) Never ever give up in life :) When you're sick of New Zealand, come back here. Keep on painting lives with your awesome personality :) Be safe and be good :) Shit man, I'll actually miss you. The crazy fook things we do. Running towards Subway in the rain. Talk. Crappish gossips. Oh, climbing through ze stairs. Epic shit you taught us :) You're always part of the family. Part of the ohana. So, be sure you come back when you have a chance okay? All the best there. I know this is a lil' long but before I go ; this is from a sister to you ;

And they say he's in the Class A Team :) Stuck in his daydream ♥ Been this way since 15. But lately her face seems. Slowly sinking, wasting ,crumbling like pastries. And they scream; The worst things in life come free to us. Cause we're just under the upper hand. And go mad for a couple of grams. And he don't want to go outside tonight ; And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland ; Or sells love to another man. It is too cold outside ; FOR ANGELS LIKE YOU TO FLY. FOR ANGELS LIKE YOU TO FLY ♥

YEO EU GENE ♥

TO THIS SOMEONE SPECIAL ; 

I NEVER REALIZED HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU UNTIL I DARED MYSELF TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE MISSED YOU :')

Be Your Everything ; 

Boys Like Girls . Love.

Woke up on the right side of the bed

And I would give up forever to touch you :)

Ohana means family and family means no one gets left behind or forgotten :) 

He's an older brother. The older brother. The kor.  The one that backs you up and the one that listen to all your complaints and the one who is there to scream at all your wrongdoings. The one who get you to crawl on the right track again! The one who laughs at you and the one who grab you when you are about to fall off your high heels :) The one who calls you out and sits at the nearest mamak stall at Segi College and go high with him. The one who screams at people who are so blind at love. 

The one who advice you on love ;) 

The ONE who doesn't let you fall, he is Aaron Lee ♥

Get your crayon ; Get your crayon
Head shoulders knees and toes
*SWAG CHECK*SWAG CHECK*
You know what sucks? What sucks is that sitting here and have nothing in mind to blog about :'( I know, pretty devastating right? Geez, okay. How is my life going on now? First and foremost, I got to say thank you to each and everyone of you out there for taking up your precious time to listen to me rattle here. Okay, back to business. This is a shout-out to every human out there who cared and looked after me, I thank you all. There are no words to describe how you make me feel but to ensure I was okay. I thank you all. For the calls and texts you made. For the effort to find me and make sure I was not lonely. There are just no words to tell you how thankful I am in life ; cause' God gave me you.

There's something about you baby ;
And I swear it drives me crazy ;
I'm stuck on you baby ;
Stuck on Stupid. 
So, I guess this is where I tell you how did I celebrated Deepavali? Okay, I did nothing. Like, seriously nothing. I prayed for daddy. Cooked dinner with mum. That's all I ever did. Then, the real day comes. Diwali. All I remembered doing  was both my fave aunts came over and woke me up. Dragged me up to the new condominium in Connaught. We ended up putting it onto renovation. Like, finally? It is going to cost for about RM 15K. What surprised me on Diwali was that people actually texted me to wish me you know? Like, Pushan, Ken Vinn, Nadhra, happiest of all, even MRS. KOSHY texted me! Felt so touched :) She remembered! :) Then, we went for lunch at De' Western Rangers Cafe and that was it. Lunch pictures :) 

Bu jian bu shan. Member card yo!

Can I like own this please?
 Can I like have this, pretty please? 

It is pretty dumb when I think back of days before Diwali. Of how I promised people I'll be there for their open houses and ended up rotting at home. Honestly, I know they are just pissed with me. When I texted them and there was no reply, I know I was facing with bunch of angry birds. Truly, I don't blame any of you but myself for these. What changed my whole mind and I decided to stay with my family was when I woke up that Diwali morning, every single family member was at home. Like seriously. Everyone was just there. Staring at me. No one went out nor anything. So, at that point I figured, it is best if I stayed indoor with them too. I know it honestly killed my best friends most as they waited for me in Pandan Indah at one of my friend's place. I didn't even turn up for my Add Maths tuition teacher open house. Screw me. Infact, it was most certain that it was my first time dropping off an aeroplane? :( I know, I owe each and everyone of you an apology. But hey, think of it from my point of view too. It isn't fair to be going out, partying and having fun when the entire family is at home spending time accompanying dad. It just isn't fair for me to walk off like that. After all, family comes first right? Darn sorry lah, tomorrow meet you guys at at two p.m. accompany you guys shopping. Drink Starbucks with you. Pay back lah :) 

Okay, lovelies? 

Cause' I love Daniel Craig that much. 

SKYFALL. 007 #^_^

So, I went to watch Skyfall with mum :) Have never felt happier. Spent all the hard earned cash on her. Brought her to Roti Boy for dinner in Leisure Mall. Then bought nail polish again :) RED. PURPLE and YELLOW :D It is holidays, what you expect? The movie was for two hours and thirty minutes. Not bad tho. Enjoyed to the max with her :) Ratings : 8/10. You wouldn't believe who I bumped into there. Those lazy days when you just put on a yoga pants and a baggy tee and a freaking cute sellipar you wear at home and you bumped into people in school. Gosh >< Check this song out tho. Sang by Adele from the movie :D Titled : Skyfall ;) Amazing story line tho. Would really reckon people to go watch it tho my older brother hates it =='''

Feet don't fail me now :'( 
Vietnam ;)

Cause' the truth is you fucking lie to ME. 
No, you lied to US. You lied about US.
 You went against everything you told ME. 
You went against everything you've ever believed in. You went against US. Everything about US. 
The both of US. 

I'll never have the opportunity to call you MINE. 

You know what hurts? Is that every fucking time I find the courage to talk to you, you just shut me down.

 That didn't kill that much as to what you do next.

 You know what kills? When you tell me how much you adore her and how bad you want her. 

It sucks that level to be in my shoes. 

Plus, it pains me to see how we've been to what we've become. Every single fucking thing I've loved, I've lost them all. I've given them all up to you, fate. 

I wished I've the courage to let you go and see you be loved by her :'( This level of insanity just hurts. It hurts real bad. Too much. It cut me too deep.

Would be off to Penang from this Friday until next Tuesday after my check-up. 

*Prays everything goes on smoothly* 

See you in the next post then ;

 regarding Penang I suppose? 

“We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven; that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.”

-Ulysses, Lord Alfred Tennyson-

Both Of  Us ; Taylor Swift feat. B.o.B

04:30 a.m. 

I can't wait to put a RING on your finger :')

From left : Teh Yvonne, Pushan, Viknesh, Raveenaa :)

Both Pushan and Viknesh really remind me of Yvonne and myself. They are always together. Share all their problems together. You don't see them being apart of each other.

Sometimes, talking to the moon is less hurting when all I tried to do is get to you. 

I want you back. You're all I had. 

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.

I keep waiting for you, but you never come.

Hello peeps. What's up? What's new? I am back and that is all that's matters. Been feeling so exhausted. Been feeling so beaten up. Been feeling so tired of life. Been feeling sick of just being ME. So, I guess you'll be seeing more of me here? Honestly, sitting here and staring this screen. Being uncertain as to how am I suppose to start blogging again. My blogging skills have gone to rust man. Geez, so, exams are over. What's next? I screwed up most my papers. Sure to be resitting them again next year I suppose? But I am praying super super hard that I do not wanna sit certain papers. Let me freaking get a band five for MUET at least? Aiming like freaking 3.0 only for this term and the entire family is freaking pissed off cause' they know I can do better but I'm just settling for the second place.

The exam invigilator :) Mr. Terrence. He asked me want band I want? Band six? I answered, call me maybe? :)

Don't stop believing, hold on to that feeling :) 

So, we had a boot camp for the lower forms kiddos in school last Friday :) Yvonne and I drove ourselves to join the barbecue dinner. Speaking of which, trust me it was such a chaos driving over with phone calls coming in and they kept telling us last minute things to buy. I was screaming and panicking cause' I wanted to be there on time and the road was freaking jammed up. Thank God Yvonne was there with me to calm me down tho :) Thank you hun. Ohmygod, we were running round Tesco, petrol stations and 24 hours sundry shops to find ice cubes. God knows how tough was it for me to be in heels. Ended up taking them off when I reached school. Exactly two weeks from now, he's leaving. Held hands with the entire board and sang Auld Lang Syne for him during the dinner :) All the best and I wish you luck there brother! :)

You're a true friend ; you're here till' the end :)

My favourite pic of the night!

 For going crazy with me. For running round with me. For panicking with me which marshmallows to buy. For walking into Tesco in the rain with me. For screaming when we couldn't find the ice cubes. For yelling which soft drinks to buy. For freaking out that the parking is not okay. For snatching the trolley with me. For buying 100 paper cups with me where by only 40 people attended. For being the first person who brought me into Tesco. For talking me out when I keep telling you about all the problems. For driving together while sending all the five kids home. Gosh, how my life would be in the prefectorial board without you woman? 

Retirement's Day Group Shot :D

Prefects Day Camp Group Photo :)

Do you realized something similar in both the picture? Look properly. Now stare. See what am I seeing? Seen it yet? Yeah, I captured both the photos :) That indirectly meant, I didn't have a group shot? :'( *Teardrops* Hahaha. Nah, kidding. I capture good picture. I know. Thank you *blush*blush*

Just realized ; I didn't have a picture with him of the night. RAWRRRRRRR! 

Selca :) 

Self-captured :)

When everything is meant to be broken ; I just want you to know who I am </3

I've been wishing everyday each time my phone fucking vibrates, I always wish your name would pop up. But today, here, I guess this is where I am done. Thank you all for everything :) The ugly funny thing is ; we human are freaking judgemental. Too fucking judgemental to be truth :) You never even intend to know who I am. You freaking judge how ugly one look. You freaking tell people the bad things about others. I know, people say, as long as you are comfortable in your own skin, you are going to be okay. But, here's the thing, when there are people like you in the world, how do you expect one to be alright? Keep comparing me to her, keep doing it. Keep bringing me down. Keep telling me how suckish I am. I can't wait to crawl to the top and proof you how wrong you are on that. You know what hurts? The answer that it would always be her. That hurt. Those moment when we touch and I realized that it will be always her. That was the exact moment you kill me. It was all such a waste of time when me running around chasing stars. 

No one, no one, no one ;

Can get in the way what I feel for you.

Alicia Keys <3

Got two invitations to Diwali celebration this year. Add Maths teacher ; Mr. Umaas asked me go his house to celebrate for it in Gombak. Another one is with Navinesh at his place in Pandan Indah. Why do I feel like not attending both? Why do I even feel like I don't wanna celebrate anything this year? For all I know, I might just stone at home. Doing nothing. First year celebrating without daddy sucks cause' I no longer can go home. I can no longer go Segamat, Johor without him. Sighs. This is a picture of my dad and cousin sister during Chinese New Year :)  

What hurts the most is knowing the fact that I would never see these days anytime anymore in the future. 

It started with a whisper and that was when I kissed her.

Truthfully, I guess all I need right now is a time by myself. To pick myself up again. To get a grip of life again and I know I can get back on track. I need to heal. Oh, before I forgot. I am on the mood to spring clean my room. So, I have like new clothes to give away as well. Any one of you who wants dress, tees, shorts, let me know, I have tons of them which have never even be worn before. I no longer want them. So, you can all come and collect them yourselves at my place. But, of course, priorities goes to my bestie, Sarah Choo to choose first. If no one wants them, I'll just send them to the orphanage. Took photographs of it and my friends are wondering why am I giving away when the price tag is still on and I wanna sell it. It is new. I assure you that. Short to say, it is just ; I no longer want them lah :) P/S : I've been so addicted to The Voice now. Check this out. The Voice beats American Idol anytime man. Cried watching to certain auditions. I even started tearing up when my certain fave artist sang my favourite songs. 

First up ; Cassadee Pope from Hey Monday 

singing My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne :)

Next ; we have Cassadee Pope again from Team Blake; 

singing Payphone by Maroon 5 :D

Third ; we have Bryan Keith of Team Adam

 singing Iris by Goo Goo Dolls :') 

This song reminded me of Ian Logan :)

Lastly, we have Michaela Paige of Team Blake ;

singing Everybody Talks by Neon Trees. 

She's only sixteen by the way :) Cool hair :D 

YELLOW. ORANGE. ORANGE. 

I need to go shopping. I need to go for movies. Go watch Ted. Go watch Skyfall. I need to restock my novels. I need to start reading and I need to do all these by myself :) I need time of my own. Can't wait to start shopping like a whacko in KLCC and Pavillion by myself again. When I get all these done, it is time for sleepovers again. Oh by the way, if I ever ask you to go out, hang out with me, whether it is movies, for a drink or whatsoever, even a lunch, it simply show how much you meant to me and that I want to spend time with you. If you think that I do not worth your time, kindly, step out of the way :) You can even step out of my life for all you want, see how many fucks I give :) Just stop wasting my time and keep on postponing outings cause' people are really annoying and irritating me when they cancel plan on me. I really needa go out. So, whether it is with out without you, I am still going to go out :) Fook the world! :) I hate people. Don't you? Great day. Great people.  

Before I forget, tomorrow's Diwali. 

So, Happy Deepavali to you and family. 

Xoxo, Raveenaa :)

Live While We're Young ;

One Direction <3

I set fire to the rain and watch it pour as I touch your face :'(

Cause' there'll be no sunlight ; if I lose you bro-ther :')

Hello lovelies ;

Captivated at you baby, like a firework show :)

Honestly, the ugly truth is that I am done meeting new friends cause' as I grow up, I realized something unique. Everyone leaves each other in the end. Truly, no one ever lasts. Unless you're a couple. Who knows ten years down the road when someone mention my name, would you still remember me, hun? That is my question to you.

I let it fall ; my heart. 
Until you kissed my lips ; and you saved me.
You might be thinking real hard like what the heck is Raveenaa still doing here when she has like freaking four days left to her major public exam. THE REAL DEAL MAN! If you feel that this post is going to bore you, I suggest, lean back and just relax. Keep reading. I assure you this would be a good one indeed :) Smirks. Okay, have I captured your attention yet? Screw you. It is truly up to you to continue reading this tho :D If I still fail to capture your attention then just press on the utter most right hand side corner on your screen? There's a giant X there right? Yeah click that :)

I remember when we broke up the first time. 
Saying, "This is it, I've had enough," 'cause like ;
We hadn't seen each other in a month?
When you said you needed space. 
What?
So, what dragged me back into this Hell hole? Well, just when I thought I am done with meeting people. Just when I am just sick and tired of getting new friends. Life indeed has never failed to impress me. As the night is still young, I picked up my pen and suddenly, I heard a knock on the door. Pfft, trust me. Ain't here to talk of that. So, yeah. Back to my story. If you've been one of my hardcore readers ever since my first post on this blog, you would have realized my blog is filled with people. People who I love. Who never fail to impress me despite how busy they are. Life has its ups and downs. But certainly the Big Man up there has never fail me by blessing me beautiful people in life. I've met so many this year. So many of them in a new school. However here, I am just going to talk of one.

Cause' you're hot ; then your cold. 

You're yes then you're no. 

When people tell you good time passed by fast, trust me. These creatures are telling the truth. I've met this kid like five months ago and it just felt as if I've only met him yesterday? Can we have yesterday once more? Let me first tell you how we met? See, there's this orientation programme we have to go through in prefectorial board. So, we basically have to ask signatures all around from seniors and he turned out to be a Form Three kid. Pfft, yeah. Imagine calling someone younger than you, senior? Sucks big time. So yeah. I have to run around asking for signatures and he wasn't the nice one to give me free signature. He gave me so many tasks you know?
 Let me list them down for you :)

You're my heart-heart-heart-heart-heart breaker :) 
Nope, G-Dragon. You are so not :) 
You are the reason why I BREATHE!
First, he told me to spell out the Prefects Oath. Like seriously brother? I spelt them out like crazy man. 
Like, I, p-r-o-m-i-s-e, a-s a p-r-e-f-e-c-t o-f t-h-e.... 
Okay, whatever. That was task one. Then, he told me he would like to go home, ask him again tomorrow. The next day,  went to him and he went like, okay. Find out, ten things about me. I swore to myself like why didn't he tell me the day before? He had to just wait until the next day to just give me a second task? I had to like find out ten things about him. So, yeah. That leads to finding, running around, asking people and things whatsoever. He rejected the ten things biodata I found. Second round, went to find, got to open Facebook and stalk, still cannot. I remembered it was my freaking third time when I got all the biodata of his. That was already DAY 5! Okay, then when I got those done, I went to him, I said, hello senior. Can I have your signature, please? He asked me, how many signatures you have?At that point, I have 30 signatues in hand only. Then he said, I want to be the number 35th person to sign your orientation paper. So, that technically leaves me to finding five more kids to sign my paper right? After two weeks, god knows, two long weeks and I managed to find 34 people to sign my paper and he was the 35th person to sign them :) 
So, do you like wanna guess who is he? He is none other than ; Yeo Eugene :D 
Picture please ;

I can't win ; I can't reign. I would never win this game.
 Without you. Without you. Definitely without you.
So, yeah. That is rightfully him. Do not kill me for stealing your photos. Firstly, I didn't even have a photo with you? Darn sad. I have. Retirements Day :( But the photos aren't uploaded yet, so I have to like wait for it? I don't even know whether the picture is good looking not. So, we have to take a picture before you leave :) Definitely! M-U-S-T~ 
Secondly, it is so hard to find a good looking picture of yourself kiddo? Every single picture is of you with a girl? :) *smiles*
True that I am in no right position to be calling myself his best friend because despite knowing him five months ago, we only started spending time together like last few weeks? Right? I'll truly miss you, Room Head Committee :) 
Take care of yourself in New Zealand yeah :) 

Its been a long time since you came around. 
Been a long time but I'm back in town. 
This time, I'm not leaving without you :)
All the best there. Shit man, I'll actually miss you. Like really miss you bro. So, yeah. Ten years down the road, be sure you still do remember us okay? All our fucking names. Each and everyone of us. The crazy fook  things we do. Running towards Subway in the rain. Talk. Crappish gossips. Oh, climbing through the Horley Link stairs. Epic shit you taught me. Getting down at Hang Tuah just to make a phone call? Gosh! I'll miss you kid. You're always part of the family. Part of the ohana. So, be sure you come back when you have a chance okay? Go until New Zealand already, be sure to study. Don't go there go after chicks nia :) Get your driving license. Look after your parents :) Gosh, I felt like a naggy woman nawwww :( What else are there to say? Be safe, play safe? HAHAHAHA! 

I'm moving on. 

No more waiting, no more hurt

If you wanted me, you could've had me, but you didn't. 
You blew your chance.

Because it is a Wednesday night. 

You are in your free hugs tee and missing someone who doesn't even like you back :-C

People change, feelings fade, heart broken, friends leave, friends become enemies, lovers become strangers, you’ll be judged, life goes on. I ran after you when you walked out on me in school yesterday. I saw you walked off Horley link with my own pair of eyes.There are too much things to tell you. Why did I let you walk off me? Why didn't I just hug you? It was our last day of the year together and I just watch you leave. When reality hit me and I ran after you, you were long gone. It will be always her the person you love. I am just stuck on you baby. Stuck on stupid. I wanna tell you how much you mean to me. I want to tell you the world you impact me of. Am I crazy? Am I foolish? But your personality are the ones that captivated me in you. 

I'm going in for the kill ;

Skrillex :)

Check this song out :)

BLACKOUT :)

BREATHE CAROLINA ;

XOXO