All the things that you are ; Beautifully broken, alive in my heart ♥

Hello, British bloke :P

And know that you are everything, let your heart sing and tonight, we light up the stars;
All that you are.

Hello once again. Remember me? Your blogger. It is real ironic because I can't seemed to find time to finish my work that was given to me but I could always find the time and the right reasons to blog. Okay, lets cut short the crap and lets begin to rock and roll the story. Why am I here? To advice you and let you know I am here once again for each and everyone of you. Let me begin my story, shall we? So, I woke up this morning and after preparing Western food as my lunch and I made Sureen lunch as well. He had rice, curry chicken with fried egg tho. So, after I finished cooking and did the dishes as well, I decided to sit down and logged on Facebook. Sureen ignored me and enjoyed his lunch while watching Grown Ups by Adam Sandler happily.

 I said it once but I am going to say it again anyhow. 

Picture perfect! Flawless ;) *Meow*

Twenty-four oceans ; Twenty-four skies ; Twenty-four failures ; And twenty-four tries 
Twenty-four finds me ; In twenty-fourth place ; With twenty-four drop outs 
At the end of the day ♥

So, liked I said, I logged on Facebook and saw something on the official page of the Ministry Of Education's Facebook status update. Turned out, I was pretty much wrong.   We all thought SPM results would be released on twenty second, but today, it had been confirmed that SPM 2011 results would be released on the twenty first. So, there is eight days left to go. Yes, you can even count with your fingers now. Thing is, I freaked out. I screamed and I was strumming on the computer keyboard and quickly to find my brother in London, Ian. I was freaking out and all Ian could say was I sound like I was about to go war in the front line. That made me laughed my ass off man. God anna! You can make me laugh like a mad woman. I told him that I am going offline to call up my History teacher, Mr. Ahmad, and Ian went like, no, don't need to call Mr. Ahmad there is no point of calling him cause' he would be like ;

"Kelas dengar sini kelas.. shhhh! Jangan mahu bercakap lagi, ahh dengar sini kelas".

I laughed so hard that Sureen called me a maniac duh! Ian had been in Mr. Ahmad's class for five years, so do I. So, I bet whoever who attends Mr. Ahmad's History class would understand that red quote pretty well! :D I couldn't stop freaking out so Ian said,

"Take a chill pill, enjoy life as it comes. You only live once, so there is no 

point of fretting over things you have no control over".

Ian left for college shortly after and told me he wanted to shoot me with a tranquilizer cause' I couldn't stop freaking out? Duh! What kind of brother does that to his younger sister? Anyhow Ian, congrats! You are going to be an uncle now that your older sister is pregnant :) Aww, it is such a great news man :') 

And what ; Do you think you'd understand
I'm boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me ; And throw me away ♥

I'm Still Here ; John Rzeznik ♥ (Treasure Planet)

So, even after talking to Ian, I was still freaking out. So, I called up my History, Biology and Maths teachers and told them this news. Oh, speaking about my Maths teacher, Mr. Kung, I am going to meet him in Pudu at 15:00p.m. tomorrow. I even called up my aunt who is from Puchong to tell her this news.  She was at work when I call her, she encouraged me so so much know? She was saying that no matter what the results is, I would be so proud of you cause' you did your best and you never did need to prove yourself to anyone. You have got no one to prove yourself to. So just chill, relax and take it easy. She said, life goes on somehow. I would never forget this quote she texted me ;

TAKE IT EASY ; FAIL IS NOT SCARED BUT QUIT IS! ♥

I LOVE YOU AUNT CHOON LANG ♥

 Happy Diwali ♥ 26/10/2011♥ 

 My yellow punjabi suit ♥ 26/10/2011 ♥

Tolberone :D

 I love you two ♥

04/10/2011♥

Happy birthday ;)

On the chair! ♥

He has a PhD in ROTAN-ing students! ♥

Nah! Hottest Maths teacher :) HAHAHA. Banyak cun lah you cikgu ♥

A picture of my Maths teacher, Mr.Kung. Hot and cun gila! Handsome kan? He is wearing a yellow shirt (: 16/03/2011 ♥

UK :P

And I'd give up forever to touch you; Cause' I know that you feel me somehow ;
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be ; And I don't want to go home right now ♥

Okay, lets get down to business. So, the reason I wanted to blog tonight was cause' this girl, I shall name her Scarlett sounds nice. So, Scarlett came online just now and she asked if she could talk to me. She told me she tried to suicide and she failed. I got even more shocked and asked her why would she wanna suicide? She said she had three sleeping pills but she is still alive and I kept comforting her. Hoping she shall tell me the reason why she wanna suicide. She said, she hated this world and she is scared to continue this life. I persuade her to keep talking to me as I didn't want her to feel alone. I wanted her to know that I am always here if she shall need me. Anytime, anywhere and anyplace. She said, she is scared of the upcoming SPM results and she feel so much pressure and stress upon her. She told me, she has an elder brother who is in Delhi, who is soon to be a doctor and she said she is very-very, super-duper close to this brother of hers. He challenged her to be a doctor like him, or else he would never-ever talk to her ever again. Scarlett felt like crying her lungs out when she told me the story. She told me, how would it feel like if Ian or Mr. Donald or any of my brothers would about to do the same to me as what her brother did to her? She said, she can't really help herself no longer and she said she is just a normal student and she could not compare herself to me. So, you guys wanna know what I did advice her?  I'll advice each and everyone of you the same way I did as her. So ;

Scroll on! ♥

Turn around, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming around ;
Turn around, Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears :'(

Okay, this is what I said. Do you think every SPM candidate batch 2011 is going to score straight Aces? No! Scarlett said, these days, without a good SPM result, you couldn't do anything. I fully disagree with you. Let me now tell you, I knew people who failed practically all the subjects in SPM but they are a law degree holder today. I met people who quit school who is a multi-billionaire today.  Yes, I do not deny that if you have a very good results in SPM, scholarships and chances would be there for you to succeed in life. But, how well do you know that you are not gonna slack in the future? It is weird Scarlett, cause' you mentioned Mr. Donald and Ian being disappointed in me if I do not score good results in SPM. Well, I guess this is where you're wrong. We are all a family. You mean as much to Mr. Donald as much as I do too. Plus, let me tell you, your parents and everyone around you would be as proud as I do when the results are out. You are wrong Scarlett at me being a top student. I am not. Sincerely, I struggled a lot. I failed my Add Maths. I failed Chemistry. But I managed to bulk up, thanks to Ian who had always been there. Tuition teachers. Everyone around me. You are indeed super wrong if you think I did well for my SPM papers. I screwed up my Biology paper two. My Add Maths paper two would be into the drain and my Biology paper two-Mr. Donald's paper was a DISASTER! Well, all I got to say is, we humans ain't perfect my darling. But what we need to do is to earn big money someday and we would then be considered successful in life. Come on lah! I've met people in life who score less Aces than people who score straight Aces and they earn more money. So, let me ask you Scarlett. What does SPM prove actually? That you are smart? Yes, but would you be able to apply everything you learnt from textbooks into life later? No! We learn through experiences. Bit by bit. So, 94' liners, let me tell you, it is okay if you do not score straight Aces in SPM, work harder in FORM 6? Work harder in private colleges then. Prove yourself. If you could not afford to pay, it is okay, there is always PTPTN. You can even work for a while before you continue studying (likewise what I am doing now). So, 94' liners, I wished each and everyone of you, best of luck, pray for myself and the others on 21st March 2012. It is a Wednesday. Not a Thursday. Oh, by the way Ian, I freaking need your England number cause' I want you to be the first human to know my results. So yeah :) That's about it. Oh, you would be proud right no matter what I get? Right? Right? Or you'll shoot me with a tranquilizer? ==

You Belong To Me ;
Cobra Starship! ♥

There's "hell" in hello, 
"good" in goodbye, 
"lie" in believe, 
"over" in lover, 
"end" in friend, 
"ex" in "next",
 & "if" in life.

Blogged for 

1 hour 57 minutes ♥ 

A Little Dream Of Me ♥

You have THAT special place inside my 
heart ♥

7/3/2012 ; WEDNESDAY ♥

Crashing through a deeper ocean 

Drown in waves of pure emotion,

Tears there, rolling from each others eyes. 

(Marching Band)

So, I was awake for a total of fifty hours of Tuesday and Wednesday. I kicked off my day by dropping by in Segi College at Masjid Jamek to meet Fanny. I promised her to meet her at one in the afternoon in the library. So, once I got to find her, oh, I gotta tell you, Segi College library's guard is very cute. He had such a quiet brown eyes. 

So, Fanny grabbed me and we went to had a drink at the nearest mamak we could find and believe me, it was a FULL HOUSE! :O Fanny and I were so loud there, we were talking, laughing and giggling away so LOUD man! Thank God nobody cared. Two young ladies talking that loud? I wonder which guys would choose us as their wives? ;)

Who's this? You look good in specs tho :) 

Stars shining bright above you, night breezes seem to whisper, "I love you".

It was then my phone rang and Sureen told me that he is on his way to meet me in KLCC. So, I bid goodbyes with Fanny after she walked me to the PUTRA LRT station and guess what? I bumped into Sureen in the train? Since I just got my salary. I promised him that I would be spending him everything on that day. We walked ourselves to the cinema first. We got our tickets (RM 18), THIS. MEANS. WAR. The movie was so good?! It starred Chris Pine, Reese Witherspoon and Tom Hardy. I rate the movie 9/10 because it was so good! IT IS A MUST WATCH!

"Lots of pretty-pretty ones, They want to get you high ;

But all the pretty pretty ones, will leave you low and blow your mind".

(Marilyn Manson ~ The Dope Show)

Sureen and I went to walk around after that and we ended up in the Petronas Gallery. 

It was amazing, beautiful and talented. Too bad I don't appreciate arts as much as Sureen does. Thing is, it is all the Hotshots from the Star Paper! They are all shots from the newspaper. I reckon you people go visit it, it is free! What harm would it cause? I got a small gift cause' Sureen and I both filled in a customer feedback form. The post cards are so pretty, here is a picture of them ;

Cause there’ll be no sunlight ; If I lose you, baby

There’ll be no clear skies ; If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain... So, after the gallery, Sureen and I walked to Kinokuniya and we searched for books. Too bad, nothing caught my attention and we went for lunch at the food court. I had the Hachigo Japanese food and Sureen had naan with tandoori. Believe me, my food which had costed me RM 13.00, SUCKED! I had like two mouths of it and I pushed it away. I had the Spicy Chicken Bento. Oh, how much I disliked it. Honestly, I don't know whether is it my problem or the food. Cause' lately I have not been eating right. Got to get healthy food tips from brother Ian I guess? *wink*Here are the pictures ;

There's a stranger in my bed, This a hickie or a bruise?After lunch, Sureen and I walked to the Rock Corner to check some cd's out. We went in for movie a short while later with a large popcorn and a large ice lemon tea. Sureen was making me laughed the whole day. What surprised me most was that the cinema was full know? When Sureen and I walked in. After movie, we both went to the Video Ezy and went home by bus shortly after. I reached home at 20:30p.m. Showered and had my dinner and slept until 06:00a.m. in the morning.

PICTURE OF THE DAY!

BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE! Thursday ; 8/3/2012I would trade any day of my life to go through this again ♥
I woke up at six in the morning and the first thing done was my 3D manicure!

I finally found you, my missing puzzle piece ;
I’m complete  ♥I went back to sleep at 08:30 a.m after watching the KONY 2012 video and I woke up only at 15:00 p.m. Skipped lunch and mum came home. After much pleading, begging, tearing and asking ; she allowed me to go meet HIM! ♥

Rock my world until the sunlight ;
Make this dream the best I've ever known ;
Dirty dancing in the moonlight ;
Take me down like I'm a domino.So, I had dinner and I got myself ready. I even did the laundry. So, after much pleading, begging, tearing and asking again, she agreed to fetch me and Sureen to him.  So, Sureen and I met up Mr. Syed Anwar al-Junid at Ilmutek. God, how much I've missed him. It had been nearly four months since the last time I saw him. He finished his class late. It was nearly 11p.m. when we settled down and climbed into his car.

"You're so hypnotising, could you be the devil, could you be an angel
Your touch magnetizing, feels like going floating, leave my body glowing".He said, my brothers and I look the similar? Somehow, when he looked at them, he knew we are related. People says, the three of us share the same piece of eyes. So, we drove and we decided to go Oldtown, Alam Damai, at first but we ended up in Pappa Rich, Taman Midah. GREAT! Awesome. Better choice! 

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger!We settled down and we talked. We ordered food and we talked. I'll upload the photos of the food last. Like talked. I missed him so so much. I missed him tremendously. There was lots of catching up going on. I am not going to blog about what we said cause that would be something special for me to keep. So, I got him two stuffs. He was so happy when he opened them. I was so so glad he loved them cause' it costed me too and thank God he loved it! 

I've got tired of waiting. Wondering if you were ever coming around? There are so many advices he gave me. So, I am smiling to myself now typing it. I love that man. That teacher. That best friend. That friend. He is the BEST know? There is so much about him that I wanna tell you. It was so nice meeting him today. Like, we are finally not teacher and student anymore but I can still feel the impact of him being my tutor. My guidance. The one that I would always seek after. Thank you so much for that. Never wanna lose you. He fetched Sureen and I home and we reached home at 01:00a.m. It was such a blissful day. Gotta do this more often ♥

FOOD PICTURES! ♥

Don't walk away from me ♥The mee goreng in Pappa Rich was so good? Sureen had that. Anwar ate the Asam Laksa. The dry curry noodles with curry and cappuccino are mine. He paid for the bill, I was so touched. Thank you so much for the day. Thank you so much for the time. Thank you so much for the two hours.  I love you teacher. Xoxo.

It is 05:15a.m. and I gotta go to bed. Been here for two hours and fifteen minutes. Ian, I am freaking proud of you. You rock! You are the most reliable person that I can count on! Sarah, I can't finish the movie. Got to return them to you. I love you both very much to my last breath. Take care. Hugs! Xoxo.

You ignore me, but I like you. You don't do anything, but I fell in love with you. I miss you, though I know you don't ever think about me ♥
Green Day ;Working Class Hero ♥

Edited ; 08032012 ♥

Girl don’t put on that wedding dress ; It’s not me next you :'(

Trust me when I say I have been staring at this monitor for the past half an hour :'(

Your daddy always said, you should stay away from a fool like me. A fool like me.

And when your momma sees me callin' on your telephone, she hangs up on me, the bitch hangs up on me. Huh?!

It is 03:34 in the morning and here I am blogging. To be frank, I had just finished watching this movie of Johnny Depp and Aaron Eckhart. I rate the movie 6/10. It is titled The Rum Diary. The movie was two hours long. To be honest, after thirty minutes watching the movie, I wanted to exit the movie and watch something else. But it was my elder brother who saw my intention of doing so, told me to hang on and finished the movie. He said, "hang in there, watch till' the end and I bet, you would learn something by the end of the movie".

Is the solution always alcohol? First and foremost, I need to thank some of my loyal blog readers. Now let me tell you that I am so proud of getting positive feedbacks from beautiful people in life. Just the other day, a girl texted me and told me how much my blog inspired her and how much she needed my advice on love. It is ironic isn't it? When I am not a love guru nor a love expert but people are seeking advices from me. I shall keep the conversations private and confidential for the sake of my readers :D But, I thank you to all those who spent your time reading my blog. I thank you, yes YOU, who is reading this for spending your time reading this post.

Every teardrop is a waterfall. 
Really? Cause' it had been a while since the last time I cry. There is only 16 days left to results day. I ain't joking. Remember the major exam I took last year? Towards the final? Yes, the SPM result would be announced on 22nd March 2012. Honestly, I don not know what to expect. I screwed my Add Maths paper two. My Chemistry paper three. My Biology paper two. Everyone on Twitter and Facebook, people around me have so much faith in me. They have more faith in me, more than I do of myself. I don't know what is the final results on twenty second. I mean, I don't wanna let people down. I especially don't want to let my dad, mum, parents, brothers, aunts, family and Ian down :'( I can't expect even a slightest disappointment from them. I really do hope they are proud of me no matter what the results turned out to be :')
Tell me what you want to hear? Something that were like those years. 

Waking up on a Monday ; Treating it like a Sunday. (Someday,OK) 
Sarah, she updated her blog and she told me to go drop by. I was so shocked when I saw my photo there and I was so touched to she that she actually blogged about me with the title of the blog post that sounded like this ;
The One That I Will Never Leave :)
I smiled to myself and realised that I was honestly, truly, amazingly touched. You should drop by too you know :D Check this out ,
http://www.sarahhcc.blogspot.com/2012/03/one-that-i-will-never-leave.html

If you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Oh cause' sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide.
So don't walk away from me, 
Don't walk away from me, 
Don't walk away from me ♥ Holes Inside ♥ 


If you read Sarah's blog, you would notice a line where she stated I am freaking addicted to this guy, Joe Brooks. Yes, she is right. I am addicted to his songs, but not his looks. Yes, he is cute. But, I love his drummer more. Matt. Clinton, is the keyboard player. The Trio came to Malaysia and they just left for Los Angeles for their next concert. Okay, let me introduce the Trio's first thing firsts :)

From left : Matt-my love, Joe Brooks and Clinton :D


So, Matt is on the drum. Joe is the lead singer and the lead guitarist and Clinton is the keyboard player. You can actually goggled about them. Hey, wanna know an exciting story? MATT FOLLOWED ME ON TWITTER! I woke up and when I saw that, I started screaming my way off around the house :D 
Here are some pictures of Joe and the Trio's :)

And of course, my love, Matt de la Garza ♥ 

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more.
If you shall love me for another thousands years, how old would you be then? 
So, Ian and I are chatting live on Facebook now. Screw that. I was just talking about high school with him. Honestly speaking, I miss studying. I miss my studying life. I honestly can't wait for college. Well, it would be awkward and hard to start all over. People judge you all over again. The process repeats and I am tormented along with it, meeting new people again. What Choon Lang said? 
CIRCLE OF LIFE ==

In another life, I would be your girl.
I would tell you how much I hate people judging me through first impression. I hated it! Just because I am friendly, people tend go around and spread rumors about me. Just because I am loud, doesn't mean I am doing it on purpose. It is just me. I just wonder why people can never accept me like I do towards them. Not a note of self praising, but just so you know, I have never judged a person straight. I never do it. I only judge a person's characters after spending a day with him or her. Well, but eventhough so, I don't back-stab people. I keep those opinions to me, myself and I. Now, tell me, are you with me for this matter?
I don't want another pretty face,
I don't want just anyone to hold,
I don't want my love to go to waste,
I want you and your beautiful soul.


Summer after high school when we first met, we make out in your Mustang to Radiohead. On my eighteenth birthday, we got matching tattoos ;)
I am just seventeen going on eighteen? 
I have been occupied by this recently ;

Just finished this ;

Dearest awesome blog readers, I do have a question. How come people's hair bun looks like these ;

But my hair bun looks like these? 

I know. Messy and ugly :'(

I think, I might actually end up being a journalist instead of a lawyer nor doctor.

Princess Of CHINA ;

Coldplay feat. Rihanna ♥