Raveenaa Talks The Talk: There Were Days :')

Saturday, February 9, 2019

There Were Days :')

There were days where I just want to pick up my phone and tell you of how much I’ve missed you. Then, there were days were I’m always worried if you’ve ate.

When Chinese New Year came, there were never thoughts from you to actually call or write in to me to wish me. You claimed that you forgot I’m half Chinese.

There were days when I told you that I really like you in a uniform, you took it in another way. You promised to be less evil, when you left. Look at where we are today? Right at the starting point again.

There were days where I wanna tell you how much your name makes me smile on the notifications.

Or there were days where I make notes of our future possible places to visit, i.e. Kellie’s Castle, Taiping, Changkat Jering and Penang. To do it all together.

There were days where I just wanna call you and tell you that I missed your voice. There were days where you make me wait whole night and don't text back.

There were days where I tell you that I pray for you, but you would ignore it as if you’ve never read it.

There were days where I tell you that I miss being

in your arms with you and you would tell me that I deserve better in life. There were days where I’m all optimistic about you coming back and you would remind me that you want to come back and

see me being happy with someone else.

There were days where I would update you about every thing out here in the world, but you would push me out of your small world. There were days where I would ask you to stay, but you would tell me that there shouldn’t be any attachments when it comes to you.

I update it all for you. I write it all for you. There were days I pray that you would read all of this and realize what you mean to me but when you told me that

with you, it just isn’t going to work out, I knew,

I’ve lost the war even before the battle started.

There were days where I’ve begged you to let me go.

I promised it would take time but you said it would make you happy seeing me move on. There were days where I ask you to not reply to my texts anymore,

but you told me that you have gone through it before,

and you’re not cruel enough to do that to me.

It was okay for you to hurt me. It was okay for you to say things to me, but when it boils down to making things okay, every cell inside you burns at it.

There were days where you’re so stubborn and you’ve made up your mind to push me away. There were also days where you call me the best one in your life.

There were days where I believe we had the best of chemistry but we never made it work, because

you just cannot handle me. Am I that difficult?

All in all, there were days, where I crave for you,

but months from now, I think I’ll still feel the same. What else can I even say to make you understand this whole thing when you’ve already made up your mind?

There were days, where I’m asking for an equal chance to get to know you. There were days where I’m asking for you to know me. But all and all, all you ever wanted was no attachments to do with me.