Bold and Young.

   MØ understands my soul. I had to dance along.  
Blow kiss fire gun all we need is somebody to lean on.

I woke up this morning staring at myself in the mirror realizing how much my features resembles my dad as

 I grow older. Today is going to be a good day! 

Today was supposed to be a good day! 

At least, that's what I thought.

I showered and put my make up on and even threw on a dress which did not work out. And I opted to change into a jumpsuit and then, gave up. I went in for the kill and went for plain basic white t-shirt and a matching shorts instead because it was when I realized that 

it was just going to be a short mini lunch hour with 

my favourite buddy so why bother? Right? 

So, I drew on my lipstick along the curves of my lips correctly and I picked out a new set of earrings and put them on and grabbed the recently hand made bracelet and off I go in my tee, shorts and black flats.

To go out itself is one scenario at hand when I was torn whether to drive down to KLCC town or to even to take the public transport, bus, there? After much tormenting myself, I decided to abandon the car and take the bus. Halfway through the journey, praying along the way that I would not be lost and that I would be alright, because I could have sworn the last time 

I took a Rapid bus in town was in 2013, which was to school, and mind you, that was insanely three years ago. I hopped on the bus and managed to switch lanes and I thank God for blessing my strong memory strength and memory power that I can still remember the way there though. I managed to scramble my way through to the city centre and I had a really good mamak food and catching up session with the old buddy. I did not have a photo with her since she was rushing off and that lunch hour lasted for only an hour and I really did wanted to get her a souvenir, but

 I knew that if I was going to buy it, she would not have accepted it, so I customized and handmade something for her instead and hoped she loved the new bracelet 

I specially made for her though it turned out to be 

a little loose for her. It looks a little like this though!

Been realizing that I am so crazily in love making bracelet and this one was for Teddy that I made. 

I miss him already thou. But, lets go back to the point.

This story that I am bound to write today talks 

about what happened on my route home.

I left after lunch at two p.m. sharp and instead of supposedly having to take the Purple Lane heading home, I jumped onto a wrong bus and climbed into the Green Lane bus instead. So, that having been wrong, 

I unboarded the bus only at Jalan Raja Chulan and started walking past Bukit Nanas and Telekom Museum to Segi College blessing my whole world 

that these little things make me smile so much. 

I am such a sucker for museums I swear.

             Bukit Nanas Reserve!             

            The Telekom Museum!           

So, I stopped for apple juice and continued on walking some more and I bumped into an old friend of mine from tuition and we chatted a little. Her name was Tiffanny Kong and I still remember her so well. We managed to catch up on life a ltitle. So, I was on my way home, when, I saw a lady, around my age, was crying in the bus I was boarding home. Mind you, the whole bus was filled with people and I couldn't stand the tears because freaking curiosity got to me and 

I stood up from my seat and I stroded slowly to her.

I sat next to this Chinese girl and as I looked at her with my big bulgy eyes, she couldn't stop sobbing and she was crying even louder as I sat next to her. 

Wiping her eyes with the tissue papers that she has 

in her hands yet the tears wouldn't stop falling!

"Are you okay, miss?" Was all that I asked. No! She shouted and the whole bus went quiet and all eyes was on us. We were seated in the middle. I really wanted to flee, I honestly wanted to just run and screw this helping people out crap. But I hung on and, 

I looked at her once more and rubbed her back and 

I really tried to make a joke. I said, it is not the end of the world okay? Whatever that has happened, everything is going to be alright.

Her tears slowed down as she took the tissue papers off her face and off her eyes. I could have sworn by the way she was rubbing her eyes, I honestly thought that her eyes was going to plunged out of their socket.

She looked at me and began her story. 

This was all that she said,

" I was madly in love with a boy since I was 17. Name it all. I have done it all just for him she said. From work to putting food on the table to surprises to wanting to marry this guy. I have done it all for him. And today, after seven years being together, I got sick at work, and I asked for the day off earlier, so that I could go back home and rest and sleep it off. And when I got back, I caught him in bed with another lady".

And her tears came back, like a waterfall once again. She was just crying and crying and crying and she leaned on my shoulder and I couldn't have been any more numb. I was stuck. I was never put in such a situation before, and I didn't know what to do. My blouse was wet soaked with her tears but I couldn't be bothered because she was shaking so hard and was trembling with words. I knew that she was forcing words out of her throat/ She could barely even breathe. My heart aches as I see this lady right here.

She continued speaking, "and right now, my only issue is that I don't know where am I supposed to go or what am I supposed to do, she claimed!"

She cried even harder and

 I almost cried along with her as well.

"Tell me, what should I do?", she cried! I froze. I knew that she wanted answers out of me. And the answers are ones that would be too hurtful to hear. The truth is always bitter or so, that's what I thought at least. 

And, I forced words out of my curvy lips yet there are no words that would come to my rescue. 

I coughed a little before I continued so that I could avoid it looking so awkward. I tried to bring my voice back into my voice box and I looked directly at her in her red eyes and said, there is nothing that you can do, besides living for yourself right now. What you should do is to go home, go back HOME where your heart and soul truly belongs and that is wherever your mummy and daddy is. Go back to your old parents and restart in life. Get back on tow feet and restart your life! Dump his old ass cause you know that you deserve better. Give yourself another chance at life and you should know that life is full of possibilities and it is full of miracles! I looked at her hard and I sounded so serious that I wanted my words to burn into her soul.

She looked at me blatantly straight. I could have sworn at that moment that I thought she could look straight right through me. And I realized that everyone else in the bus was always looking at us as I was actually shouting my way and those words through to her. I kept the positive words coming. Not bothering who was staring, or who was dissing, or even who was just plainly shooting me the look. I said, I may not know you, but you are stronger than this, girl. You are. You deserve so much more in life than to be treated like this in life. So, please respect yourself more enough to walk away from this piece of shit who is not worth it!

It was then when the bus came to a halt and she has to alight from the bus. Before she jumped off, she looked at me and asked, could she have a hug? And I stood up, almost immediately and I gave her the hardest hug I have given anybody in my whole life and I whispered in her ears to say that girl, you are worth it! Please know that. She turned to peck me on my cheek and said, thank you, kind stranger. 

And it was then when it hit me like a bullet train that maybe, sometimes, it is all that we needed after all 

in life, a tight hug from a random stranger 

who we met on the bus or on the streets.

I climbed back into my seat and slouched and realized that I have missed the bus stop home and

 I have to take another bus back home.

And I thought to myself, today was supposed 

to be a good day, wasn't it?

Anyways, here's a picture of my view for lunch today. Credits to the baby iphone six. 

HAPPY THAIPUSAM 2016 TO ALL DEVOTEES. 

My Kind Of Drug :)

Tell me what happened, she asked quietly.

Tell me all about it. I want to know what 
your feelings are. I want to know exactly 
what are you feeling. She sat across of me 
with both her eyes staring down at me. 

I flinged my eyes shut and closed them as tightly as 
I could as the pain and all of the memories from the night flushed through my soul. This feels too good 
to be true as they slowly comes together. 

I stood directly opposite of him as I stare into those quiet eyes. The eyes of a man who has been through so much. Yet, he keeps them all to himself. The eyes of a person who has suffered pain, loss, grieve yet he keeps it all bottled up inside of him. The eyes, 
that a girl like me, would die for.

Hello? Babe? Are you okay? Her voice brought me back to life. What do you like in him, she continued? 
What is there even so special about him? 

I kept mum about it. I cannot. Honestly, all that was going through my head was, just to cry it off, To let it out of my chest. To tell the world, that no one deserves whatever that he has gone through. He is who he is today, because of what people put him through. Of course he has chosen this path. But he is walking through Hell right now and he is so strong about it. How can someone be so deserving,
yet the world doesn't know about him? 

I shut my mind off as I slowly dragged myself upstairs cause honestly all that I ever wanted was to end 
the session and to just crawl into bed.

That night, the girl that I know, tossed and turned and she sobbed as she broke into tears. No one deserves that much of pain, in life. Just no one. She remembers driving up his driveway and seeing him there, waiting for her in his lush tee shirt and three quarter pants and sandals. Perfect she thought! Just what was needed, because she honestly 
really wanted him to be comfortable that night.

The little voice in her head asked again, I am talking to you! What do you even see in him, it asks? 
I stuttered. As I sit on the bed and I tried to bring words to my lips, I failed. I forced myself on and
 I managed a little courage out of myself by a little tug of the Angel on my shoulder who whispered to me and said, say it.

I like his quiet eyes. I like the fact that he keeps all the pain within him. I like the fact that he has been through a lot but he keeps it all to himself. Like, it was nothing at all. And then, I thought for a moment and my mind drifted away from me as I slowly pull myself together. I took a deep breath and 
     I start to tell his story.      

Here is a story that has never been told and I gulped and I said, I think, it is time that people hears about it, I said. Everyone around me gasps. Wanting to know more. Tugging on me to say more of what I knew.

And here is what I have got to say ;

That boy, is worth the fight. He is worth it. 
The answer lies within him. The answer is always always HIM. He has such a quiet eyes but they spill more secrets than anybody can ever know, boy. 
And I need him to know that. He needs to know 
that please. That he is worth it. He is! 

And I choose this path, to stay by him, to fight this war with him. He has a forever friend in me and he has changed me in so many ways in just a night. 
I miss him already. My new favourite best guy friend. 

2016, Love Me Better

Hello, readers.

It has been exactly a month ago since 
I last wrote a piece on something. 

Since this would be my first post for the new year's, 
a close friend of mine asked me last night, what would my New Year's Resolution be? 

Before I forgot, if you are wondering so sorry I have been away these past three weeks. Thanks to darn finals which caused me so much stress. It is when I don't study and push everything to the very last minute that, I realize how lousy am I to deal with stress. 

I was suppose to talk about my New Year Resolution 
in this, right? 

I am so sorry for being away. Been catching up with sleep. I haven't been meeting old friends like I always do though. But exceptions definitely goes out to 
my punjabi friends who dragged me away to 
William's Corner in Kelana Jaya and Joeyyy Lim,
which I had an amazing lunch date with.

My New Year's Resolution For The Year 2016 ;

I am going to be so honest upon writing this post that 
I am so sleepy to even think about anything right now. But, since a few of you have requested to ask about 
my resolutions, I guess this would be it.

I would personally make this into a list of 16 things 
I would want to achieve since it is the year, 
two thousand SIXTEEN right? 

1. Make this year more better than 2015. 

And by better, I do not mean that my life sucked back in 2015, but I guess that it is time that I actually know how to start differentiating the good and the bad.

2. To know more people. 

Who am I going to lie to.
 Wherever I go, there is always a need to make a new friend or company, to make more new friends, but obviously keep the ones I am having right now closer.

3. Travel more.

I think the more that I grow up, the more I realize how I fall in love with travelling, it makes me forget about the world, for a little while you know? And by that, I mean, I need to visit and sight seeing more places. 

Fingers crossed, 
Bangkok in June, 
London in August ; and 
France in December. 

4. Family, my mum in specific.

To actually come back home more often and spend time with the ones I love most. How can we not talking about family, when they are ones that all we've got? 

5. Friends.

I've had a rough year probably lost more people than I should have. I can never determine who are said to be temporary people. Who ares ones who stays and who goes. And, I think that's crucial at this point in my life.

6. Work harder

I honestly need to stop procrastinating till the very last minute and start working smart. It is the end result that matters, thus, I need to start proving myself again.

 
7. Love deeper, not harder

Let it be family, cousins, buddies, seniors, juniors, 
guy friends, girl friends, besties, I need to love more. 
It is always nicer to give than to receive. 

8. Read more novels than you are suppose to.

It is time to give away what I have been holding back and time to catch back on what I truly love instead 
of focusing on others, focus more on myself.

9. Definitely, more food hunt coming :]

More variety of food and actually spoiling 
my taste buds and pallets. I need this.

10. Catch more movies, karaoke, ice skating sessions and here's more to shopping sessions.

As much as I have to work hard, 
I would need to rewards myself too. No?

11. More sleepover sessions and 
more heart to heart talk.

I need to learn to stop speaking so much and to begin to listen. I need people to think of me of an alternative of help instead of thinking that they would just be a burden to me. I need to open up and more for people to learn to open up. I need to learn that in the end, 
IT WOULD BE WORTH IT. 

12. Piano.

To actually restart again and this time round, 
I would start with Just The Way You Are.

13. Learn and cook and bake more. 

There's more to life than just this but preparing basic dishes for people and hearty meals are just the best.

14. Birthdays.

To actually remind myself to never forget and to surprise every single person in my life. To pull off big agendas and dramas. To begin to remember people's birth dates and horoscopes without any Facebook 
or I Phone's reminder. 

15. Love God.

To pray more. To wish for nothing more than my loved ones to be safe and to blessed and healthy. To put my sarees to good use and to actually pray for people. 
For people who I've judged or wrong, I am sorry. 

16. Love myself.

To actually reward myself every single day. To thank God that I am living. To live each day to its fullest. To live it like if I am dying. To do sudden trips. To value health. To cherish relationships. To adore more people. To do things that I never thought possible.

What is worst than having one Raveenaa? 
That there is two Raveenaa :D
All and all, I hope you get the chance,
TO LIVE THIS LIFE,
AS IT IS ONLY ONCE.
AND REMEMBER, 
IF YOU DO IT RIGHT,
ONCE IS ENOUGH.

Dance like there's nobody watching,
 sing your heart out, 
live everyday, 
LIKE YOU ARE DYING :] 

Sweat ; Snopp Dog xx