Exactly.

So the clock struck four in the morning and here I am blogging. Cause I rebel to sleep and I wanted to watch movie so badly yet the Internet is just not on my side tonight. Was watching Just My Luck by Chris Pine and Lindsay Lohan. Funny cause one of the best quotes in the movie that was mentioned was, when one door to unhappiness closes, two doors that leads to happiness open? Is that true?

So this threw me back to earlier incidents of the day. I woke up in the morning today. Cannot believe of how much of a morning person I am becoming these days during the examination month thou. It is surprising me as well. Woke up and got myself all dressed up, ready then left to surprise Aaron Lee, the brother of mine and leader of Exodus Family Dance Crew. 
Our dancing family.

Decided to travel with the small one and caught up Joey Lim in Leisure Mall for lunch in Wong Kok. I was starving by that hour when one thirty showed up on our watches. I really wanted to give something to Aaron as a sign and wish of luck so I took out my pencil case, yeps, time to get down ; dirty and creative. Asked from the waiter a piece of serviettes and I started drawing and writing. So, we gulped the food down our throats and we left to the main stage to see, literally support our Aaron who is representing the top four teams with his group, #Kickerz in the finals in the Astro Battleground competition.

Earlier we stood up there for clearer views and really wanted to see who could catch a spot of us. Nevertheless no one did and we went downstairs once the performance was over. Yeps, guess who was smiling when he did saw me? Yes, him. This guy below. So here are all the photos of the group with all the photos with everyone as the Astro Battleground (ABG) finalists and a picture of all Exodus members ; well most of us actually ; with Aaron. 

Well all captured by me thou :] 

Continuing, we went to Boston for a cup of drink. We bid our goodbyes considering dearest best friend, Joey, had to go back to college in Subang on time. So we left and I made my move to Starbucks to study.

Okay time to be honest, it had almost been four hours I am sitting here spamming Microeconomics and to be honest, nothing is truly going inside my head. I feel like crying our blood tears you know? No, special shoutout to Josean, who taught me Econs tonight thou I kept erasing the mistakes I did till the book tore. Jake and Harry who came to join me to study cause Boston got really dark. Wasn't sure were we really studying or were we hanging out or plainly
 just laughing and talking.

So, took this out and started blogging on my Asus tablet. So what's sad to see is everyone around me are with their couples and they have a partner for dinner. Yet I am left alone. Yeps, the three left at eight and here I am waiting, for the prince charming to come and just sweep me off my feet. Nah not technically. I just need to like calm myself and go get dinner considering I am hungry :/ Left the place at ten and reached home safe and sound alone as the usual :)

So what's the point of this post? I have so much in my mind to talk yet I have no clue as to where to start. It was like ; hmph. I guess I just gotta suck it all in and breathe then move the hell on. Sometimes, it disappoints you doesn't it? When the one person you thought you could rely on could actually have those thoughts. It is even scarier when after being spoken of, you found out all the little things are actually true. 
What happened to us society today? 
Are we really turning into small monsters? 
Well, the true question is, why are we?

The only thing that I could get probably running in the back of my mind right now would be sometimes I don't get myself. I feel like I am at a warzone with myself. Guess why? It is like, you see. Youngsters don't get it. When they choose to believe what they hear and not what they feel is right. Now that makes me laugh. Ask me why? It is like, people who you have thought who have knew you forever would know you best yet sometimes in life, people just prove you wrong, right?

Lazy? That was just a catch phrase. Just admit it would you? That you are a selfish monster. I was taken aback when I knew it but guess I was right, meaning you opted it after all. You chose this path and I guess, he was right thou I hated him, he told me the truth. I mean not at least that you were right behind me using my name and all. Then again, you knew the reason why I hated him after all the amount and tons of workload he put me through. It was a group task yet he opted me to do it by myself. Well serves everyone right I learned and I did managed to score. And that is what matters the most.

The part where the quote sick and tired came out. Again I was shaking but then again. It was all made clear now. You see, I have priorities. I know, you don't get it and it is just merely impossible to just make you understand. I am not rich enough to be paying for a tuition fee. And I cannot even find time to juggle tuition, homework and sleep. Yet you chose to toss and turn. To be honest, I don't think it was wrong to be asking extra knowledge and to be having her to do it for me just for free, meant a lot yet 
you chose to leave me hanging this way.

Yes, I know my rights and wrongs. But to hear you say skipping her class once or twice wouldn't kill was a stab to the heart considering everyone knew that I am not that smart and I am not that strong. That I need extra tutoring hour. Well, why thank you cause you took it all the wrong way and assumed. Could never believe my ears when I heard that. Spying up on me, looking for my whereabouts are all spying on me, know that? To be honest, so what is the great loss thou? I don't see it thou. It is like you just judge me through like a plain paper so go ahead 
and do what you're best at.

Next, the childhood friend. Seriously? Seriously you are going to say that? I am just being a wallflower before I pukes out every single thing thou. It is like, every thing is with me after everything we have been through you actually had that thought in mind of doing such a thing? You know you are acting exactly the way the incident 2010 happened. It was like I wish you luck but then deep inside the soul is all black hearted devil. Maybe I could not be blaming you as well. I would just like to state the disappointment I had after finding out the truth. Told you to keep it tight and shut yet you chose to update it was like a stab using the knife straight through my heart. 
After all, glad you both have it all figured it out. 

Anyways guys, this post was drafted on November Seventeenth midnight. Sorry that I took a day to post this out. Was waiting to post the pictures as well both on the blog and on Facebook :] Alrights, you readers can actually check out post photos here and on Facebook by just clicking the link below! 

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Just six days left including today until the Economics paper come. Alrights, gotta hop. Play My Luck by Lindsay Lohan to kill and then The Walking Dead Season Four Episode Six ; Live Bait. So ciao! :) There's a Malay guy at the door, OHMYGOD :O This post is highly inspired by the highights of the colour ;

GOLD AND MAROON :]