She was never a person who is great at emotions. Heck, she rarely shows them unless you are probably one those who are close to her. As much as she wanted to ensure life was made easy for you, she wanted you to be around just as equally bad as hers.
She never wanted you to see how weak of a person, she could have been. That was probably the reason why she hid all of those lonely thoughts and midnight trails away from you. She never wanted you to be the kryptonite of hers.
But when you were came clean and you became so honest, she became clueless as to how she shall react. For the first time in life, she doesn't know what shall she do. And when you told her the reason why you became close to her, it truly made her sad.
For the first time ever, she was taken aback, she was caught with disbelief. That all of this, was coming from a person who she thought she could see forever in. And when you told her all of this, she kept convincing herself that she shall not be judgmental of things
you are feeding her with.
All of these lies, thoughts, things that you've told her, she could have sworn that it does not make any sense to her. Why feed her with false hope when you are going to disappoint her in the end anyways?
Why bother?
It is true that you say she needs to be understanding as what you have said and it is even more heartbreaking to see her act as if she is okay when it is clearly otherwise. What kills even more is the thought that we are all so helpless to see her this way. We'll talk this out, I promise we would. You would be okay, girl. You would. Take all of the time that you need but please promise me that you would HEAL.
That you would eventually be OKAY.
We are all warriors in this battle call life.
Maybe, I should let it go (:
Fight every second, warriors! Phir Le Aaya :)
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