Relationships or Realizationship?

And there goes the saying,

life, after all, is not a bed of roses.

I fell asleep last night, sorry, I mean to say, I fell asleep last morning considering the fact that I was out. And I have come to a realization that maybe, there are really some inconsiderate people on planet Earth after all.

So the story goes like this. I was already flatten on bed when I was already prepared to tuck myself to sleep when my phone buzzed and I saw a text asking two questions on screen. And the questions are as follows.

1. Raveenaa, why don't you have a boyfriend just yet? 

2. And how come you've never thought about 

settling for someone at this age?

I could have sworn that the moment I saw the text,

I flipped. 

Oh, I flipped real good when I have really had troubles sleeping these days and people sent texts like these.

First and foremost, here is what I have got to say. It is so inconsiderate of people to actually text me at that hour knowing for a sole fact that I, as a person, think a lot. And I simply do mean it. As a regular, reasonable person, I am a normal, typical growing person who think so much and it sucks because when texts like these caused a stir in my head, it just makes it 

harder for a person like me to fall asleep.

The main question as to why I have never had the thought of getting a boyfriend? Well, who am I gonna lie to? Of course, I've had thought about settling down for someone. Someone who truly cares deep down for me still would come to comfort me. Someone who I can call at three in the morning when I have had 

a bad nightmare. And there it goes with the judgemental gangs to ask, why do you 'demand' 

so much in life? Well maybe I do. Or maybe I don't. 

You see, a person like you may settle for a boyfriend and call it off just within a day. But the way I look at things, I date to marry. Yes, call me old fashioned, call me typical. But maybe, just maybe, I care more about the way other people that surrounds me would feel.Honestly, it is all fair in love and war. That's what she said. But come to think about it, it is never fair in love. When you have finally settled in for someone, you do have to take care about how the other party feels. 

Of course it is amazing that you have another half whom you can brag or speak about to any other person. But then again, I never really truly see the point upon dating someone who solemnly makes you cry 

all the time. You fight. You argue.

What is the necessity in all these? 

Well, many of the people I know. 

Well, mostly actually and I personally think, that the next few statements I am bound to make is going to hurt a few parties but I am going to say it nevertheless. 

Of course it is all great and all that you are going out on high class dates and that you get each other expensive gifts. But when you truly sit and think about it through your head, those money in your bank account, aren't even yours to even begin with. And for what purpose, do you even have the rights to use your parents money to make another person, who, I stress, who isn't

 even blood related to you in the first place?

I guess that statement came out a little too bold 

but think about it. What's the point of being in a relationship that makes you so unhappy and the one fact that you and I cannot even come to deny, 

that when you fall sick, the person you turn to look after you at the end of the day would be your parents 

to bring you to the clinic and to tuck you in bed. 

Maybe, that just shows signs that you aren't even 

ready to be in a relationship. I know I am not. 

However, I cannot deny as well that every relationship like any other friendship, has got its perks and quirks as well. And I am happy for people who have 

actually found their soulmate for the rest of their life. 

It is fortunate to have someone at the end of each tiring day, to talk to. To look forward to something and to meet each other family. I guess, I just have a different perception about love, after all. I really just want to graduate and then work and when I am financially independent and capable of supporting myself, then only I would think about this. I don't believe upon people who come to me to claim that after their first part time time job pay comes in, they used the salary 

to spend it on their other half or ended up 

using everything up on their own. 

Please do knock some sense into yourself and maybe, all that I am asking you is to bring your old man and lady out for tea. It isn't anything huge but do trust me on this that it would mean so much to not only yourself but also to them. Maybe, your parents do deserve 

so much more than you could think yourself. A lot of people, have come to see my mum telling her of how worried they are simply because I seemed to be doing just fine growing up without any man in my 21st life already itself. Well, I don't. Coming to a realization that my dad is no longer around, maybe, my mum became my topmost priority. And that maybe, if I cannot find a person who can love her as much as I do, then maybe, you are not even deem to suit me in the first place. 

Looking at it from my perspective, so what if I am 21 today and still have not found my significant half? So what if I would be 41 someday and still be single? 

At least, I do know that I try my level best daily 

to make myself live life to the fullest. Well, to people who changes boyfriend as if they change clothes, maybe, just maybe, you might want to 

reconsider your stand on love again. 

"Cause, I don't do relationships", 

would always be the answer of mine to the second question whenever human beings come close to stab my soul by asking things like why I have never thought about settling down for somebody. Well, the answer is obvious enough I guess that I have not met The One yet. This is life, no matter how hard I tries to deny it, 

I just haven't found another soul to understand this dark soul of mine. And maybe when I have found another person to adore and love me the way I am, 

I would be different. Coming to think about it, I think, generally, people do not even 'know' me in the first place, let alone to actually 'understand' me. Of course, 

I have got lovey dovey texts and love letters and gifts and coffee, but maybe, just maybe, I do think these people deserve better people than me. When I can't even seem to keep myself contended and people 

around me happy, how do I make another soul feel 

love and okay and secured about me and myself?

It is true as to what people always say about me, 

that someday, one way or another,

 these insecurities is bound to kill me.

Trust me, when I tell you that you don't even know me if you claim that you have known me for years. Really. You sure as hell have not even seen this side of me that I wish not to show you OR this side of me that I showed you that I shouldn't have. Really. You don't truly know someone until you step in their shoes and walk through life from their hawk eyes but I'll tell you this for sure, you don't really know me, if you have not sat through a heart to heart talk with me at three in 

the morning, talking. Now, it just seems creepy right, knowing me, that maybe, you just don't know me 

well enough to claim that you understand me.  

Before I end this blog post considering the fact that I blogged this on a phone and in a bus, I am not going to deny that, maybe, relationship do more good than harm? Or maybe, it do more damages than good? That's the thing you'll never know. Guys, work hard for your family beginning today. So, in the future, your future wife and family wouldn't have to suffer so much. Girls, work hard too. Not for your husband, but for yourself and your children someday. You know human, after all, when change of heart happens, guy leaves girl and vice versa. At the end of the day, touch your heart and ask yourself, what do you want in the end? 

Are you working towards it now?

Bae, I want this for my 21st birthday gift, get it for me.
Whoever that is reading this at this hour, anyways. 

Please, excuse me, I don't mean to be rude, 

but tonight, I'm loving you.

Melaka Trip :)

Many has asked what I have been up to lately.

Many have asked why have I not been writing lately.

I should have been studying the entire day today.

 Instead, I chose to write up a post from February 14th this year. Since two of my girls texted me asking how was my Melaka trip earlier this year. I ought to blog 

this to share. Read it and tell me what do you think! 

So, last Tuesday, on February 10th, Siew Kai Hwei, Lee Fey Yee, Chong Su Theng and myself.

The four of us left for Melaka. 

So, I could not sleep that night before. 

I woke up at 5:45 a.m. that morning to get myself ready to make my way to Masjid Jamek to pick these girls up. I went for breakfast that morning with mum and younger brother at Vistana Corner. It had been years long since I was last there. I had a real Typical Malaysian breakfast that morning and after that I made my way to the McDonalds in Masjid Jamek to wait 

for these girls. I was literally there for one hour 

and thirty minutes earlier on plan though. 

I sat quietly and listened to music as I wait for time to pass patiently. It was eight in the morning when I leave the fast food restaurant and I made my way to Masjid Jamek train station to grab these girls. They arrived at 08:15 a.m. and the four of us bought tickets and hopped onto STAR LRT and made our way to Bandar Tasik Selatan bus hub. If I wasn't mistaken, we reached the bus station at 08:45 a.m. and we decided to get the earliest bus available to Melaka. We got 

our bus tickets that morning heading towards Melaka Sentral at 09:30 a.m. We quickly head over to KFC so these girls can grab breakfast in that 45 minutes time. 

It was my first time seeing how Kai Hwei literally gulped down all her food cause we were behind time. We tried discussing about Melaka. On places we wanna head towards first once there but the plan fail and I suggested to only decide once we are in Melaka itself. So, we quickly took a toilet break and we hopped onto the Delima bus express. The bus was late that day. We only pushed off from Kuala Lumpur at 

09:52 a.m. that morning and the four us laughed, gossiped, talked, chatted away in the bus. There was a movie by Arnold Schwarzenegger that was playing in the bus that day. The movie was titled The Last Stand. I decided to nap it off for 30 minutes cause' I really feel the exhaustion was already kicking in considering 

I have already been awake for almost more than 

24 hours long.

Look at who sat next to me in the bus to Melaka.

She was the one who sat with me to and fro Melaka. 

She was also the one who slept with me in Melaka.

We reached Melaka Sentral that day at 12:30 p.m. 

Look at these happy faces!

We took the Panorama ( local bus ) number 17 to head to the town. The bus ticket costed us RM 1.50 each. Before we knew it, we were standing in the streets of Jonker and the four of us had to slowly figure out the way to out hotels. We were really like blind ladies figuring the way that day though. We were forcing ourselves to remember the way to our hotel with our memory. Once we found our hotel, Da Som Inn, 

we finally checked in and settled down 

and got a 30 minutes break. 

I forced them upon taking this photo because I think the background in this hotel was really beautiful. 

     No?     

 

Since the four of us were not hungry, we decided to start our travelling heading towards Cheng Hoon Temple in Jonker Street. Here, Fey literally lead us four the way through on how to pray and all that. Thank Lord for her. 

After praying, I complained that I was already feeling hungry considering I had breakfast way earlier than 

the three of them did. We made our way to hunt for Nancy's Kitchen, in Jonker Street, for lunch. 

Credits and gazillion of thank you to Mr. Donald 

who actually told me to head over this place for food. 

I shall now let the pictures to do the talking for me. 

Here are pictures of what we had for lunch that day (:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

After finishing our lunch, the four of us 

roamed around Jonker Street for a while. 

The only two comments I had for the day was that :-

1. The heat was just too much.

2. The shops in Jonker Street closes way too early.

After that, the four of us walked over. I repeat, we walked over and shopped in Dataran Pahlawan, Mahkota Parade and Hatten Square. The four of us walked over from Jonker Street for 40 minutes long guys! We did some shopping. Here are pictures from Cotton On, Nichii, followed by H&M and we later then 

went to Sakae Sushi for dinner. Here you go! (:

 

   Dataran Pahlawan :)   

       

   Cotton On :)   

    Nichii :)    

   Mahkota Parade :) H&M pictures are as follows :

   That was about it from us for Day One there :)
 Give me feedback and tell me what do you think! 
That is all from me, for now! :)