Raveenaa Talks The Talk: Emotional Fool.

You know what is a difference

between a loser and a winner?

A loser follows rules while a winner makes them.

- Student Of The Year -

What if she really loves you? What if she really likes being around you? What if you are only a temporary obstacle in her life? What if you are placed here to only distract her? What if you will never stay? What if she opens up to you and you got scared of the real her? Of the monster in her? What if you run? She is putting everything on the line just to have you both know each other better. But you always make her feel as if she is not worth it. Is she really isn't worthy of that fight at all? That you could have walked out her life. Does she really seem that strong that maybe, just maybe, you think she is doing fine without you, but deep

down inside of her, she is breaking all over.

What if she takes the move to apologize for all the faults and for all that has happened between the both of you? Could it be that all those feelings were fake after all? Could it be that it was all an act after all? It hurts because she fought real hard for wanting you to stay in her life. She knew she is really bad at making decisions. The one fact, even you knew that she is super indecisive. The whole world, you included, knew that you were her biggest weakness. And that fact that seeing you cry, breaks her. She died inside knowing the fact that she was the main reason why you teared.

It hurts and it really kills.

It should not have even end this way.

Maybe you were right after all. That she don't deserve you and you don't deserve to be put through all these waiting process and phase. That maybe you should have just move on cause' you deserve someone better. Someone who will do everything for you. Everything that you have done for her, someone would come into your life and do all of those for you. If there was one thing she could not have a full grasp of, it would be the one fact that why stay and then leave? Why leave when she was at miserable at best? What if the point of

ever making her feel that maybe you did love her?

She had been nothing but a broken doll her entire life. She had been nothing but miserable. Until you came along. You changed her as a person. Yes, maybe you both do argue but that was all because she wanted the best for you. She wanted the best for the both of you. It was then when you started pushing her off to the other guys. It was then when it strucks you that you are no good in her life. How could you ever do that to her? How could you ever determine the final say about leaving her in someone else's hands when all she ever wanted to be was to be in your arms. How dare you ever said that she will move on without you? That she would find someone else to replace you? That the new guy will take good care of her better than you do.

Who are you to even make the final say in her life? Who are you to even judge her in the first place when you yourself don't even know what you meant to her. You were her world. The only one who knew her inside out. You were the one who knows her plus points and her flaws. How could you ever do that? Leaving her when she needed you most. When you could not even say anything when she cried so hard in front of your face. When she was begging for you back in her life. You stood there like a fool. It felt to you as if someone has come and nailed your foot to the ground. You could barely move and you just stood there like a pole looking at her tears as they stream down

her cheek rolling onto the wooden floor.

You were right about one thing. That she cared about you. That you mattered to her. That is why you are letting her go right now. What if she wants to fix things upright now at this very moment? Is it even possible for the both of you to go back to the very beginning? Seeing you change this much kills her even deeper. You were right about one thing all along, that this war, will never be won. But it is a war that must be fought. And it kills because she feels as if she is the only one and only who has been fighting for the both of you the entire time. She felt that maybe she meant nothing to you, at all. Just maybe, she should disappear and let these late night thoughts that would be the end of her. It would be the reason why she die. It would be a definite reason why it would be the end of her. That she is fighting this war alone, deep inside her head.