If loving you was WRONG, then I never wanna be RIGHT.

Hello freaks. 

Missed me much? Been exactly two weeks since we last met. Now, here I am to rant about something once again :) 

You got a girl, that doesn't look a thing like me. 

The girl your mother always said she would be, your wife someday. The truth was that she killed herself to spare herself some pain. She didn't want to see you getting worried for her anymore and she no longer want you to go through this pain with her. All she ever wanted was for you to be happy. All she ever wanted was to see you HAPPY. 

So, here I am once again to talk about how well I spent last weekend. So, from the picture above is my two lovely huns from Pudu Girls School (PESS) :] 

From left : Raveenaa , Chui Ye and Suebe ;) 

Okay, you might be thinking, why did I even bother to attend this IU day when I could have attended tuition and truth to be told, I had exam on that day in school and I skipped it for this one guy who impacted my life so so much :) 

I am just really happy to meet him in life. One phone call and he would be there for you. The thing that touched me most on that day was , when I walked into SBU and seeing all unknown faces until I saw him and relieve flushed all over me. We exchange smiles ; hugs then he drag me to a corner and asked if I was alright and sort. I mean, who does that? :'] I swear meeting you would be the best thing that ever happened in my life. Four years of friendship and still counting kor :) I can't wait to meet dai sou, like seriously. I am really eager to meet her thou. Like I wanna tell her I've heard lotsa amazing things about her and I wonder like would she like me? Like would we be best friends thou? Gosh. 

The whole point of being in SBU was to see this second family, second home of mine perform. EXODUS. I literally had a sore-throat the next day for screaming too much. This picture above was captured and edited by me, myself and I. It hit the most number of likes on Facebook. I literally have 108 likes on just this photo. Trust me, it made my day. No, it made the album happened. Cause' I know, I am not a great photographer like others do and I don't carry a DSLR around like people does. But ; I've always been into photography. I've always love photographs cause' they make things happen and people might change however they wish, but the photos that I keep, they are the memories I cherished.

Having a second family that would be the best damn thing that ever happened to me. Thank you for this ohana. Glad that I meet each and everyone of you, Exodus. This is a family shot tho there were lotsa strangers in it thou :] Thou, I know I am like sad all the time, but when you are around them. your heart feels so much warmer. I GOT TO SAY THIS BUT THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING KOR :) For staying through ups and downs. For seeing me and dragging me to the side and made sure I was okay. Thank you so so much :'] I can't wait to see you around and I just wanna tell you that I adore you so so much and I am so proud of you. Thanks for this family. Thanks for every single thing bro. I swear you're freaking amazing :'] There are no words to paint a picture of you bro. Thanks :'] To the rest of the crew, thanks for the day. You have no idea how amazing you are and I just wanna say thanks for every single dope ass moment in life :'] I heart you guys.

You're stupid. You're weird. You're a failure. But, that's okay. Cause I am so much worst than that :'] We laugh at the most random things and you are the only one who know my ugliest side. Even though, we disagree like most of the time, no. We disagree like all the time and we fight all night long. When I'm sad ; you were ALWAYS ALWAYS there. You never fail to be there for me and to make sure that I am okay. To make sure this girl is okay :']

And I just wanna tell you that, I freaking love you for all these :) Thanks for being there for me and I love you, bestie. You're the best :)

SPECIAL SHOUTOUT TO WYE KEI AND BENJAMIN HO :) 

FOR THE COUNTLESS HOURS SPENT TO LISTEN TO ME WHINE. LIKE SERIOUSLY. FOR NEVER LEAVING MY SIDE. How would I ever survive school without you two? For always being there and never leaving my side. For bearing with all my god darn lame jokes. For listening to me curse :'] Gosh, tell me why are the both of you this amazing again?
 I love you both, to bits bestie :)

So, met up with these three last Tuesday and had a long chat whilst lunch. Aren't you something' to admire? Cause' your shine is something' like a mirror ♥

Family that make you feel like you belong to them :) Brilliant lunch time today! :) First time in Diners and it was amazing! :] 

Cheers to everyone out there who is going through a tough times and difficulties in life that never seems to end, hang in there. You're gonna pull through. You're gonna be strong and when everything is done, you're gonna hold your head up high and you're gonna walk the walk cause you're amazing, 

Just The Way You Are :] 

HOPE : Hold On, Pain Ends :) 

Carbonara in Diners :) M-I-N-E <3 

Adrian and Merissa didn't end up together ;

and all I ever wanted was

JUST TO ESCAPE. 

You > everything else in life.

I thought I found you till' I've messed things up once again. I think what kills the most is seeing you being okay through all of these. How could somebody who meant so much to you at one point of your life, be somebody that I used to know? Truthfully, I know I should be okay through it all and I know I would survive through all these. I should thank you. Cause you taught me to be strong. Your hugs never fail to make me feel okay. I know, I should be grateful and I should let you go. It sucks to be seeing someone who I used to share everything with and yeah, feelings fades and I guess friendship too. The weather changed and gulps, I guess umm, you too, changed. I am no longer that special friend you have. Yeah, the ugly truth is that I no longer mean anything to you and I know I've got to learn to accept this fact. And we both know that I'm not that strong :) 

I miss you but I admit, I am good for something.

 I just knew it. I just haven't found it YET.

Next post would be on CBD from yesterday. 

That is about it for now, good night. 

Carpe diem. 

"At the most unusual of times, take the most unusual of actions."

-REA7ER-

Just A Kiss ;

Lady Antebellum. 

Bangarang. Sorry for being difficult.

Ever wonder about what he's doing?

How it all turned into lies?

Sometimes, I think it is better ;

TO NEVER ASK WHY </3

Sometimes, I regret being nice, apologizing when I didn't do anything wrong and for making unworthy people ; part of my life :'[

Good morning beautiful people. The idea that you are actually reading this, keeps me smiling. Okay, back to life. Let me rewind this week. How do I begin? *smiles* Okay, this week had been hectic. Like seriously. Course work is piling up like mad and I have like only three hours of sleep at maximum.

 This kills ; like seriously :[

I know loving me has never been easy, I'm like a wild fire thats hard to tame, but I wanna thank you for loving me anyway.
-Eric Church-

People change yet memories never did. Honestly, I should probably just say sorry to you. Sorry for being such a mess and such a pain in the neck. I know, I am not good enough and trust me, you deserved better. Stop blaming yourself, I never did said anything. So yeah. Maybe it is just me. Maybe it is just me who is good in making a mess out of everything. Really. If you were to walk off that door right now, I would run after you but I would never find the guts anymore to ask you to stay. Cause at the end of the day, who am I to just ask you to ask you stay after all these years. For loving me right, I swear there would never be any you ; I am so sorry for not being perfect enough and I wish I could. Really. It amazes me as to how you're capable of seeing everything beneath me and to know that I am not okay when everyone else out there is telling me to be steady. Maybe we both just need a time off. Really. For real. Like a year. Five years? Ten years or perhaps forever. It kills when we're in a room yet all I hear is dead silence and how did we even end up this way? Call me sensitive. I know, I am just complicated. Sorry for being difficult. 

When all else fails, yet you were always there for me. I just wanna say thank you for just staying around I swear. I guess I've turned into someone everyone hated the most yet you still stuck around :'] Thank you. Believe me, it is the last thing on Earth that they ever believe with their eyes that me turning into someone they loathe and it hurts. Really. I feel everything at once. Anger. Tearing up. Mood swings. I swear there can be no way that you are allowed to ever forget me cause like you would ever, right? Geez, I adore you. Glad I made you smile today. Really. Nah, I practically freaked you out today. Sometimes, I wonder how you stand my babbling when I myself can't even seem to handle myself. Gosh :'] Friends like you, are hard to find and hard to put together. My dearest Starbucks buddy, for scoring better in the upcoming exam and I hope you really did loved the gift today. You're like the only one who always manages to calm me down and I always feel good after talking things out to you. Lets do this right okay. Thanks kid. 

April. 

No, never felt so real. No, it had never felt so right. 

-Lady Antebellum- 

Was there earlier today to grab my car. The rain was pouring so heavily and I've never been happier to play the rain today. I was soaking in rain water when I saw it fades right before my eyes :'] I was saving it and I couldn't do much to it thou and the rain just wouldn't stop pouring. Perhaps this marks the start of something new, to let go and start all over. 

Good night all. 

"We started with a simple hello, but ended with a complicated goodbye."