All These Little Things ; They Add Up To You.

Dear you, 
I am so sorry that I've put my blog on idle. But I am back for more simply because I thought I should get some things off my chest. This one is for you, I guess.

I wrote this, stuck in a crowd filled with people who could really put me in such an uncomfortable state. 
I wrote this listening to my playlist here wishing we had a song of our own together.

That night when I called you up to tell you that I've been skipping meals for the day, I could hear that you sounded really worried. Laughing it off, I couldn't help but to notice the tone in your voice changed when I told you that I needed a person to accompany me to dinner as I was starving and before I could even ask, you said okay immediately. Within a heartbeat, I could have swore at the sense of guilt I was feeling that night questioning myself as to why am I putting you through THIS.

Having dinner at ten at night was a basic normal thing any student in this university goes through. But note the fact that you actually cared about me, made me so touched that night. Before we stepped out of the car for food, you handed me things you know which are of my favourites. When I told you a week ago that my friend finished them away within a split second that I never did even get a chance to taste a piece of it, you came back this time with two packets of it. For the second time that night, I swore at myself that I do not deserve this kindness that you're showering me with.

We walked in silence towards the restaurant and I was speechless. I mean, who wouldn't be especially when you've been surprised that way. I requested for photos that very night simply because it was a moment I never want to forget in my life. It was of that kind of moment that I was so starstruck, I could not even think straight. As we walked further to have dinner, I could really see in those pair of eyes of yours, that, you were deep in your thoughts again. I waved them off thinking I should really concentrate on our time together,

 instead of overthinking things again.

You paid for dinner that night, and you caught me so much by surprise. Honestly. I couldn't help but to watch you with full of awe, wondering to myself where have you been my whole life. It makes me sad that it took so long for your you to actually find your way to me after all these while. We left the restaurant laughing and giggling so loudly, and it was when we wanted to cross the road that our hands brushed one another's. And it was just that gracefulness of yours I think, I really do not remember what exactly happened next but all that I could remember was that my heartbeat was beating so quickly. I really thought my heart was going to burst. The funniest part was that I tried my level hardest to keep calm and despite almost bursting from the inside, my heart was racing so quickly and I could hear my breath quicken yet my fingers betrayed my mind as they laced themselves perfectly and comfortably 

into those delicate and long fingers of yours.

I could have rested my palm intertwined with yours for life. That warmth feeling from you was something that 

I pray that I would never forget my whole life. I push the thoughts back to the back of my mind as I really struggled so hard to put on a straight face because

 I honestly did not want you to even notice how 

nervous and nerve wrecking it became for me.

There must have been something with those eyes of yours that I am falling so deeply for. It was then at that very moment where I could have felt that, for once, everything was going to be okay. That we are in control and it was going to be alright. That no matter where this life leads us to, the both of us would be free. To me at this very point, I would want to get back to that very second and put everything on halt, and watch you with those big eyes of mine. I didn't want it to end and

 I wanted all of it back. I really wished 

that I had the superpower to relive all of it. Again.

We walked some more and drove around into the night and looked out through the window. Our hands were still intertwined and all I could ever wish for was time to stop ticking away. There was this one point that you squeezed my hand and looked at me in the eyes that 

I felt sad. Your eyes were laced with some kind of sadness and I would honestly do anything just to save you out of it. I almost teared that night knowing that your eyes were filled with an uncertain kind thoughts and sadness which had been rooted inside your heart, seeping into your soul. And all that I could do, was WATCH.

I felt guilty as I daringly broke off the gaze as I thought to myself, that letting go of your hand, would definitely break me one day. That I am sure of. I am going to feel a pang in my heart realizing how attach I've became to you. All these little things ; they add up to you. I am so into you, you've got no clue. Yet, here I am wishing and praying, if only I was good enough got you. 

I don't deserve you, really. I don't. 

You're just too nice for a girl like me. 

Goodnight.

     Late Night Drives.      

      The One.     

     He's The One.       

Fantastic Four In Kuala Lumpur City! Part 2 :]

It had been a month after my birthday tho. Exactly 

a month long. But that's not the point. Today, after much snoozing my phone alarm, I jumped out of bed at 09:40a.m texting both Vino and Thiviya telling them that I am awake. I woke up to noises downstairs and it is so good to see elder brother, Sureen's face and he told me that he is working this Thursday onwards. There is so much of planning of activities to be done this weekend with the family, but all I am thinking is just campus and work. Going to 

keep myself so occupied and busy, I promise.

The only good sides of me these days is the fact that I've been sleeping early ever since. Been crawling into bed and calling it a night and it is such a comfort feeling to know that my sleeping schedule is fixed. 

At least, for this upcoming facilitator camp.

I got ready within minutes like the superhero, The Flash and I couldn't decide on what to put on for today, so I thought might as well choose the basic maroon Topshop basic plain t-shirt and a leggings and finished it with my favourite pair of flats, anklet and the necklace from yesterday. So I left home early today to take the train to KL Sentral, since it was our meeting point for Day Two. Decided to ask Sureen Anna for a favour to drop me off so it is in a way easier for me and I would save a little bit of time. 

In his car, I was so torn as to whether should I take the STAR LRT and then switch to Putra Lane or should I straight take the KTM Train to KL Sentral. I picked the later and regretted every single decision of mine.

Oh trust me when I say the KTM is such a pain in the neck when I was at the platform, I prayed that I would be on time since I am considered early for the day. Trust me when I tell you that my heart sank when the train got delayed not for a minute or two, but for 30 minutes. And it became where from being early, I was turning out to be late. I have always salute people who had the patience to wait for KTM Train simply because it is something that I didn't own. The worst of it all is when  9 STAR LRT trains passes by yet there was still NOT even one KTM Train in sight. Why is it that whenever I am early for something, the result would always turn otherwise. Ugh.

After delaying for almost 40 minutes, the train finally came and I boarded quietly heading towards KL Sentral which was five stations away, alone filled with anger and frustration. The only good part was when I actually put on a small black pottu and an Indian average looking girl asked for help for directions and for once, I felt good because it was something that I was able to help. Anyways back to the story, I arrived towards both Vino and Thiviya at 11:40a.m today, I felt so bad for making the girls wait for 10 minutes. 

Cry a bucket of tears, really.

So once we met up, we quickly decided to take a cab to the National Planetarium from KL Sentral. The cab fare was for RM 16.00 fixed rate so around RM 5.50 each, and we hopped onto a super big cab and there we were heading towards the National Planetarium.

Once there, we took photographs at the entrance and whilst we were planning last night, we thought about entering the movie exhibition but since we were already a little bit late than the stipulated time, we decided to just spend time in the gallery. It was such an eye opener I swear. We spend around an hour there from 12pm to 1pm. Among the best places for photographs was this one place where it looked like a newspaper cut out, and also, this Anti Gravity Room. So cool the room and lighting though. We had such headaches honestly. Everything felt so different. 

This is a picture of colourful periodic table and I remember them placing powder Attack detergent as Sulphur, and there were also matches and shampoos respectively. Did you know that astronauts sleep standing in the airspace? You didn't, right?

We played so much here, from checking the heart beat and pulse to the Earth to the moon to the planets and etc. I swear I felt like a school child. 

Such a good hair day and the new Fantastic 4 sisterhood necklace. And then, we made our way up to the second floor, it was supposed to be a route to Balai Celup, but it was closed. So we had the of the city. Ending the tour in National Planetarium here.

Since it was so heaty, we made our way on foot to National Museum. I would explain based on the photographs. There were so many tourists around and this is like my third trip to the National Museum though. The entrance fee into the museum is RM 2.00 each. I shall just let the pictures do the talking for me. Click on the photographs to enlarge them okay?

So once there, we spend around 45 minutes from 1.15pm to 2.00pm and halfway through the museums, both the girls turned to me and complained that they were hungry and that we wanted to head back to KL Sentral for lunch. So we left quickly at 2pm and asked for directions and we walked back to KL Sentral. How close. But before I jumped to pictures of lunch, let me explain the National Museum photos briefly okay?

Zaman Prasejarah

 Manusia Perak

Bottom Left : Writing on cave walls

Bottom Right : Gallery Zaman Kesultanan 

Melayu Melaka

 Picture one is of a handwritten Al-Quran, followed by Batu Nisan Sultan Mansur Shah. Picture Three is of Candi Borbordur and lastly, picture four, featuring on this blogpost is of the Tibet God of Avalokiteśvara :)

 Photos of cara memasak tuaian. 

Replicas of A Famosa, in Melaka and of Bunga Mas given from Sultan Kedah to Siam back in those days. 

So, we wanted to have Indian food intially for lunch, but because it was already so late and besides, we were already starving. We didn't want to beat the heat as well, I swear Kuala Lumpur heat is another pain in the neck. So we gave up on Indian food 

and just had lunch in NU Sentral Food Court.

This is lunch, wok and grill dry chilli chicken rice lunch set with egg and vegetable and oyster sauce which costed RM 10.50 for the whole set. I ordered cendol too for RM 5.10. Don't judge, I know I eat like a whale. So after lunch for about an hour, it was around 2pm to 3pm at that hour, we went to the Guardian pharmacy to get some toiletries and we took the train back home at 3.15pm and was back by four something to sleep because we're heading to Sai Centre in Bangsar for bhajans tonight. That's about it. Relationship Goals ; Humpty Sharma Ki Duhalnia :] 

• KTM Train Fare : RM 2.10
• Taxi KL Sentral : RM 16.00 ( RM 5.50 each )
• Muzium Negara : RM 2.00 each
• Lunch Cendol : RM 5.10
• Lunch Wok and Grill : RM 10.50
• Train from KL Sentral to Masjid Jamek : RM 1.50
• Bus from Kota Raya to Cheras : RM 2.00
• Total expenditure : RM 28.70

Places Covered : National Planetarium, 
National Museum, KL Sentral, NU Sentral

[ PART 2 OUT OF 3 COMPLETED ]