Worth It...

Oh baby, I am worth it.

I am writing this piece to not only vent my frustration, but to also share my sadness out to the world to hear. 

   I am actually typing this in a friend's room simply because I cannot hold the anger and the tears back.

Before I even begin on anything, it is a weekend. And unlike many who has three days of off days, I don't. 

I know I am in no position to be complaining about it, when the truth was, I put myself in these situation. 

It is not fair that I had to spend more than half my day at a field trip which really annoyed me like seriously.

I woke up this morning wishing I was dead because 

I had only three hours of proper sleep in this two days and when I woke up, I wished I could begged and tossed and turn to actually skip this thing which actually carried almost 70% of weightage in our finals exams. What makes things worst was the fact that people stresses so much about punctuality but, Malaysians being Malaysians would never be on time.

We were supposed to leave sharp on time and knowing how annoyed I got, people procrastinated and we only moved an hour later than planned. That being said, once there, we had to walk into a venue with 

no one guiding us nor signboards or anyone along. 

Being clueless, the forty of us on bus embarked on a new journey till we actually reached a football field filled with mosquitoes and nothing done for us. 

We had to literally start from scratch. 

What annoyed me even further was the fact as to this job that I was assigned to. Unlike others who had booths, unlike others who had cameras and could walk around to capture pictures or even the simplest music instruments to play. I was forced to look after a team of people which did not even need me in the first place.

Me being me, I never even brought any materials with me and guess what? Yes, I ended up wasting for almost six hours, under the hot sun, starving and 

the best part, time management people. Just please.

It was that in the moment when he, he, picked up the courage and he walked over and he spoke to me. He, who is from the faculty of engineering, who bothered to actually chat it up with me. He, who for a moment made me feel as if it wasn't a wasted day and time as 

I actually made a new friend here. He, who is in his final year. Thank you for this nevertheless. I should probably add pictures of people who kept me entertained the whole day, here. 

That being said, despite even before allowing us to return, they made us wait till the bus was full and it took us almost another half an hour just to fill the bus simply because four seats were still empty at the point we wanted to depart. That being said, I rang you up cause I really wanted you to leave the place with me. 

I really did. The bus driver would not even listen to only my lecturer, let alone me. 

That being said, I HAD TO leave earlier only to realize we did not capture a picture again, today. Fine that being said. I should have waited back, but the day was gonna rain and friend just had to drag me back. It is when things like these I feel like I am actually 

losing a brother, of mine. Yes, mine.

Came back to the room to kept the dried clothes. Changed into my pajamas and closed the curtains and slept straight for the next four hours and before I knew it, Shahira came to ask me for dinner when etta called to seek help in temple. I was so reluctant to go 

in the first place, but dragged myself up anyways.

Lets not go things that really made me so dissatisfied as how people ran things but to mention things too. 

Left for party session with Ashu,Sister and Declan for tea and then we got ice cream which melted towards the end. It was such a short meet up I swear. Probably only took us for only about two hours out. We managed to climb the treehouse before getting back.

Came back to a text message which I almost cried reading. I cannot brain this. It is about you, again. 

Why is God putting me back in your life? 

Why do our lives keep crossing one another?

I came back only to hold on to my phone tonight to have long conversation with the long lost brother who I've missed. I wish you are doing well. I think,

 the thing you and I need, is a catch up session.

     I honestly need a heart to heart session right now.   

To you, who is reading this, sorry for rejecting your handshake today. Sorry for pushing you out of my way when you asked for me a hug, sorry for saying no when you offered to pay for my food, sorry for never texting you back, sorry for not being yours, sorry for never being that smart little girl. Sorry for saying no to all of your offerings because at the end of the day, 

do you know that you deserve someone way better. 

       Note this.      

Lastly, the note of this post is to not waste my time, whoever you are, whatever post you are holding,

 I could not care less, because at the end of the day, 

TIME, is the only ONE thing, that I can never get back.

Greatest shoutout to this six years best friend here cause' I was three months late for her 21st birthday gift. Anyways, to sum this entire post up in a picture ;

         Ohhhhh!          

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#AgarTumSaathHo

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