Worth It...

Oh baby, I am worth it.

I am writing this piece to not only vent my frustration, but to also share my sadness out to the world to hear. 

   I am actually typing this in a friend's room simply because I cannot hold the anger and the tears back.

Before I even begin on anything, it is a weekend. And unlike many who has three days of off days, I don't. 

I know I am in no position to be complaining about it, when the truth was, I put myself in these situation. 

It is not fair that I had to spend more than half my day at a field trip which really annoyed me like seriously.

I woke up this morning wishing I was dead because 

I had only three hours of proper sleep in this two days and when I woke up, I wished I could begged and tossed and turn to actually skip this thing which actually carried almost 70% of weightage in our finals exams. What makes things worst was the fact that people stresses so much about punctuality but, Malaysians being Malaysians would never be on time.

We were supposed to leave sharp on time and knowing how annoyed I got, people procrastinated and we only moved an hour later than planned. That being said, once there, we had to walk into a venue with 

no one guiding us nor signboards or anyone along. 

Being clueless, the forty of us on bus embarked on a new journey till we actually reached a football field filled with mosquitoes and nothing done for us. 

We had to literally start from scratch. 

What annoyed me even further was the fact as to this job that I was assigned to. Unlike others who had booths, unlike others who had cameras and could walk around to capture pictures or even the simplest music instruments to play. I was forced to look after a team of people which did not even need me in the first place.

Me being me, I never even brought any materials with me and guess what? Yes, I ended up wasting for almost six hours, under the hot sun, starving and 

the best part, time management people. Just please.

It was that in the moment when he, he, picked up the courage and he walked over and he spoke to me. He, who is from the faculty of engineering, who bothered to actually chat it up with me. He, who for a moment made me feel as if it wasn't a wasted day and time as 

I actually made a new friend here. He, who is in his final year. Thank you for this nevertheless. I should probably add pictures of people who kept me entertained the whole day, here. 

That being said, despite even before allowing us to return, they made us wait till the bus was full and it took us almost another half an hour just to fill the bus simply because four seats were still empty at the point we wanted to depart. That being said, I rang you up cause I really wanted you to leave the place with me. 

I really did. The bus driver would not even listen to only my lecturer, let alone me. 

That being said, I HAD TO leave earlier only to realize we did not capture a picture again, today. Fine that being said. I should have waited back, but the day was gonna rain and friend just had to drag me back. It is when things like these I feel like I am actually 

losing a brother, of mine. Yes, mine.

Came back to the room to kept the dried clothes. Changed into my pajamas and closed the curtains and slept straight for the next four hours and before I knew it, Shahira came to ask me for dinner when etta called to seek help in temple. I was so reluctant to go 

in the first place, but dragged myself up anyways.

Lets not go things that really made me so dissatisfied as how people ran things but to mention things too. 

Left for party session with Ashu,Sister and Declan for tea and then we got ice cream which melted towards the end. It was such a short meet up I swear. Probably only took us for only about two hours out. We managed to climb the treehouse before getting back.

Came back to a text message which I almost cried reading. I cannot brain this. It is about you, again. 

Why is God putting me back in your life? 

Why do our lives keep crossing one another?

I came back only to hold on to my phone tonight to have long conversation with the long lost brother who I've missed. I wish you are doing well. I think,

 the thing you and I need, is a catch up session.

     I honestly need a heart to heart session right now.   

To you, who is reading this, sorry for rejecting your handshake today. Sorry for pushing you out of my way when you asked for me a hug, sorry for saying no when you offered to pay for my food, sorry for never texting you back, sorry for not being yours, sorry for never being that smart little girl. Sorry for saying no to all of your offerings because at the end of the day, 

do you know that you deserve someone way better. 

       Note this.      

Lastly, the note of this post is to not waste my time, whoever you are, whatever post you are holding,

 I could not care less, because at the end of the day, 

TIME, is the only ONE thing, that I can never get back.

Greatest shoutout to this six years best friend here cause' I was three months late for her 21st birthday gift. Anyways, to sum this entire post up in a picture ;

         Ohhhhh!          

#Nowplaying

#AgarTumSaathHo

#Tamasha

Festival.

Because it was a regular Friday when everyone else gets to sleep in or people all around KL or PJ gets to home for the weekend, but I dragged myself up 
at seven in the morning for an elective class.

I had Cyber Law and Land Law that morning but got really annoyed at the fact that I did NOT get much sleep from last night. But then again, I was truly excited for the Hindi movie we were going to go for!

Thivya booked Tamasha, starring 
Ranbir Kapoor and Deepika Padukone 
at two for us and the journey begins!

So, first the four of us met up at Astar bus stop and decided to go for lunch once we reached NU Sentral. The whole way, I was just complaining of how hungry I was considering I had an early dinner the night before and I skipped breakfast that morning.

Thank you to the roommate's love, who literally entertained me through the journey and we listened to music along the way. So, we quickly switch the medium of transport and waited for a little while at the train station when Hari, later joined us and we boarded the train heading towards KL Sentral.
 I should add that the fact that I bumped into
 Kishen from school at the train station. 
Missing schooling days so much seriously. Tears.

I was screaming of hunger along the way simply because I could have swore of how hungry I was seriously. We joked, laughed, giggled, teased and talked along the way, and before we knew it, we were already at the station and we literally made 

our way quickly to the shopping mall for lunch.

Deciding what to have for lunch was one thing. Deciding where to eat was the other. I was literally in tears wishing and asking these lovelies where to eat before I finally suggested for the food court and 
OFF WE GO!

 

Since there was five of us, Hari, Shankary, Vino, Thiviya and myself, we took turns to place orders and we had only an hour for lunch. We swallowed our meals quickly and quietly and here, I present to you, what I had for lunch earlier today. 

This is crispy chicken chop from the food court in NU Sentral ( RM 12.60 ) and the cendol ( RM 4.90 ) that I had for lunch earlier. We were then joined by Kisham for movie and we left for theater. 

We got popcorns when we bumped into Kalai from Astar who was on his way to collect his passport and left for the movie of the day, Tamasha. One thing that I could tell you from this movie is that, I cried in the cinema just to simply show how touching can a movie be. It clearly shows, what you like is not necessary what can feed you someday in the future, which is really sad in real life. I would choose to rate this movie 8/10, simply because this song 
from the movie was really good. Do check this out!

This song was the first that came out from the movie imagine how pumped and alive this was.

I think, if there is one thing people should know about me, it was going to be of the fact that how 

I can never compromise on parental and love scenes. 

I started crying halfway through the movie and asked Vino why did I even agree to come for this cause it was just too good to even be described with words right now. Please, if you are reading this, 

make time and do go watch this okay?

We finished the movie at 16:30 hours sharp and after a short toilet break, we decided to have tea and left for Brickfields. Had a really good currypuff and vadai from the shop near the bank and we left for Sitaram, a shop in Brickfields for the evening tea. There was a bet that went on along the way and it was so good to have saw someone from behind and actually recognizing it was him. Just proof how good my eyes are, no? No, it is more like, it was just the right angle at the right time. Anyways, this should just stay between us, but I won a 'teh tarik' bet today, yo guys!

Anyways, we finished tea and went back to KL Sentral for pretzels and took away mc donalds as dinner for myself and the three of us took the train back to campus and we managed to reach back at seven thirty. The one part that I had to mention about today was the fact that it was a good girls' heart to heart session. We took photographs along the way back and once back, I took a short nap on the floor and instead of finishing up work, as the usual, chatted the night away.

It is so hard to get used to someone who texts 

you daily and these days, he cannot even says hi anymore, right? Funny how things passed. No? 

Which reminds me of my next point, whatever happens tomorrow, I requests and I demand of a photograph of us two tomorrow. Call me arrogant or call me stubborn but I am telling you that I want a picture with him tomorrow during the field trip tomorrow! We can do this. Just like old times. 

Just like how we used to, etta.

The sisters texted me for dinner who came to pick me up for dinner at 10.30p.m. They were really crazy as they even waited for me to shower, washed my hair, blow dry my hair and comb my hair. Had a really good talk about family with them as well. Which makes me really miss home. I miss mum. I miss all of you. Fey dropped me off at one and I have been here ever since. Before I end, here is a picture of us four, 

my trip partners. My sister gang! :]

 

Got to go since I have to be up at six am tomorrow and it is almost three am already and I am still wide awake. TEARDROPS. Once again, I present to you, Tamasha. #Tamasha

#Tamasha

#Nowplaying

#HeartAttack

#DemiLovato