Dissatisfaction.

And I thought that being strong 
means never losing your self control.

Hello, once again. Breathes. I am alive. Yes, your blogger is alive. Yes, freaking alive and to be honest I am feeling really rather boiling right now. And it is not that I am mad. But it is more to feeling sad. Rather than saying feeling sad, I would say I am filled with rage. And disappointments. Yes, that is the word. Disappointed. And I am really upset. Being upset at how some people's mind in this country works.

Now, I believe if you had really truly been reading what I have been posting on social networks lately, you would actually realize that my favourite artist is indeed in town. It was a great news to me. Although he is here to launch a new shopping mall. I am happy and glad that he is here to actually perform a few songs of his. Estimated to be four to five songs of his.

Now, here is the thing that I was really sad about. No, I don't come from a rich family you see. And I don't come from a background that everything I want, is a must have. Or anyone I need to meet, is a must to happen. Not all that happen in my daily life. Yes, it is true that it was indeed his second visit to Malaysia this year, on June 7th and since he was here last year, on my birthday, it was such a sad scenario because I only truly adored him beginning this year. So being this crazy fan girl, I do wanna be there for this event. 

To hold this event in Damansara is just plainly insane considering it is almost 40km away from where I am currently staying. But hey, no excuses right? I mean, I really do want to meet this guy. So here's the thing. I have no one to fetch me there on THAT particular morning. What other options do I have than to actually hail a cab there. And it is pretty insane on how much things I have gambled to put on the line to actually skip my classes, to actually put on pretty plus decent clothes and to go see him. But once again, I am not whining as I know that there are fans traveling there as well from Singapore and Indonesia. Those are really just die-hard fans man. Super hardcore that I am not. That I lose to.

Here's the list of things that I wanna talk about in this entire post. Although I did had fun during the showcase upfront, but here's a thing or two that I would like to comment on. Now, having to travel there without a Very Important Person (VIP) pass is saddening. It is a very sad case indeed. It was sad okay because it felt as if I am only gambling this through. That there was only a 50/50 chance to meet and greet the idol. VIP passes are passes that simply means the particular person who had won the ticket would either have a special seating or get to go backstage or they get to meet the particular idol. So it is a VIP passes is basically a pass that can help a person to actually be able to meet the idol really upfront during the showcase or backstage at concerts. So, there were numerous of competitions I've entered, yet I have no idea why I just never have the luck to win these little contest seriously. I never seem to strike once at all. You have no idea how many entries or forms I've written and personally sent to different agencies telling them how much I wanna meet this favourite idol of mine.

And it is pretty time consuming because I don't really recycle and send all the same answers, instead I come up with new fresh ones. So it involves really sitting down and heavy thinking skills. I really did brainstorm my way through. However, it is such a sore to the eye having people who actually won the contest form, yet, they decided to skip the event. Now, you must be wondering, how do I know? Like why do I bother so much? Of course I do. I have been on Twitter ( a social network site ) since the early of the day and it was such a sad thing to see when people who actually take photographs with the passes and skipping such events simply because reasons given were such as no transport, parents disapproval and there is one stating that it was her brother's birthday so she would have to skip the event. Just keep reading. I'll elaborate. 

I literally almost broke into screams and tears when I read things like that on social network. Number one, if you knew you had no transport to such a mall, why did you even bother taking part in the first place? Fine. Now that you've won, why didn't you pass that ticket to someone else, I mean at the very least, there are people who can attend to see him. People like me. And what even breaks my heart are people coming up with reasons like parents not allowing them to attend such showcase and sort simply because of that, they decided to skip. I have no idea how mean 
and selfish our people can be. 

My personal best girlfriend literally stopped her own blood brother from taking part in such a competition simply because she said, "It would be so bad to take up a spot when you, yourself know that no one in the family have got such time to send the brother to such an event". I mean, be logical, isn't that how a person's mind suppose to think and work? There was this one girl who had to skip the event simply because the event happened to be on her brother's birthday dinner. I am sorry, but hello? Do you happen to only know your brother on the event day? To only figure out that his birthday, falls on 7th of June? The day of the event? It is so depressing you know! When I see tickets goes to waste like that when there are people, people like ME who wants them tickets so badly. Can you believe such reasons were given by such people and citizens, no, they are demons, who and somehow, 
gave to skip attending the event? 
Hurts doesn't it?

Okay, part two, all that aside, what was even more sad was how some people actually acted on the day of the showcase. Now, I know it was a free event. You have no idea how much I wished I could have bought the tickets like how they would do in concerts with cash instead of depending on fate and luck though seriously. I'll give you an example what happened at the scene using two different scenarios 
to describe it to you, yeah? 

Have you ever been to a tuition centre? A public tuition centre. Or a library? Now, you see, I used to attend public tuition centres and it always sucks whenever the front rows in classes are always filled. Well they aren't filled with people exactly, but they are usually filled with textbooks, novels, bags, water bottles, umbrella, pencil case? Any sort of material you could think of. Now, the part that sucked the most would be when those usual latecomers ( like me ) who used to finish school late and I always rush to tuition centre sweating to only find front rows seats are always taken or booked by materials instead of human beings. And when stuffs like that happened, there are only back rows available. I really don't mind if they really reserve such places for their best friends or anyone who is about to come for tuition later on. However, the seats are always empty even until the end of the class. I mean, these people tend to place their school bag next to them throughout of the entire class as a claimed spot. I'm sorry but how is it not possible that such a big place, the particular ( tuition room ) are always so occupied? Always so pack! always so many people! I always wanted to ask people like these, I am sorry but does your school bag pays tuition fees too like the rest of us now? It annoys the hell out of me to be dealing with people like that you know? The same thing happen all the time in a public library too. 
The same exact scenario.

I mean, I wonder can't people be a little less selfish? I mean, just try practicing being a little selfless then. Try learning how to share out empty seats? Place them god darn materials in a bag and put them on the floor though. I mean, what problem is there, right? Why can't we ever practice the first come first serve basis the right way? Just because you are there early, it does not mean that the whole table belongs to you? How are we ever tgoing to learn to let go the greed and selfish feeling without wanting to learn to share things that doesn't even belong to us in the first place? How are we ever gonna improve in people's skills then? 
Learn all that things right and shove 
them up people's mind seriously.

Now, the two incidents and scenarios I've shared up there have pretty much described and explain how and what happened during the event. I suppose you readers don't need my explanation once more on that matter, do you? All and all, if you're a teenager age 13 and above, you should be able to think already. I mean think of everything I've said on this post and start being nice to people. I mean, I don't need you to kneel to people especially the elders. But start doing little things. Like, throw on a smile to a stranger. Or start giving smiles away. Stop being so cold seriously. Most of all, learn to share. I mean, we wouldn't live forever, right? So, there's no harm to learn to start being nice today to others, starting this moment right?

So, please readers, do make a difference from today onwards. Add it in to your new year resolution. Although it is already in June, half year gone, but remember it is better late than never. So, start being nice to others! Start learning to be healthy. Read this ;

I rest my case. Thank you. Bye! 

I knew you were trouble when you walked in.

                                                          

21:00p.m.

Five hours ;

Signing off ; Raveenaa <3

JUNE. You Are My End and My Beginning.

I REMEMBER TEARS STREAMING DOWN YOUR 

FACE WHEN I SAID I’LL NEVER LET YOU GO.

My best friend, Ian once told me this saying “Take a chill pill, enjoy life as it comes. You only live once, so there is no point of fretting over things you have no control over". Do you know who that girl is? It is someone I arise to each day and the person the mirror reflects. That girl in the photo is someone I look at every single day without fail in the bathroom mirror while I was brushing my teeth or directly after having my face washed. That girl in that photo, changed. I don't know what happened. But, I changed. Looking at old photos and realizing how happy I were back then makes me sad. No matter how busy I used to be then. I barely recognized the girl in that photo anymore. Really, I don't know what happened. True enough when people say that, the weather change, feelings fade, the plants wilt then withered, people die, people step into your life, they touch and go, people die and people change. 

That is what I feared the most.

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare. 

Do you remember how much people used to tell you that you have got to have dreams in life as dreams do come true? Well, they definitely did forget to mention that NIGHTMARES are part of our dreams as well. She's strong, she knows her worth, she never settles. She is me ♥ It is sad if you love that guy and he can't love you back that way. So, in order to save yourself, you got to like say goodbye :'( I miss spending time with you. Honestly, in my opinion, it doesn't really matter we are spending our time out together or something. I think it is comforting to know that someone is there for you. Likewise, you feel secure that he is there no matter what happens. Like, even when Hell freezes over, you'll still know he is there :'( But in my case? It seems like hardly. True, in certain people's life, the impossible 
become the possible. Legit huh?

I am lost ; I am vain. I would never be the same. 

Without you. Without you.

But, in this life, in this birth, these all truly is impossible right now. Maybe I am just putting a full stop into all these. You might think that I would be like the last person in the list to give up. But, sometimes, when you are too strong and you stop showing your emotions, people starts thinking that you don't own emotions. People forget that you too, 

DO HAVE FEELINGS.

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger? 

Oh, please.

The saying what doesn't kill you makes you stronger is a lie. It doesn't turn you into a superman either if you're wondering. You are a human. Humans aren't bullet proof. If someone grabs a blade and cut you and you so call wanna show the blade makes you stronger and it doesn't kill you, you'll still bleed to death in the end. I rest my case.

It’s been a long time since I came around ; 

Been a long time but I’m back in town. 

This time I’m not leaving without you.

After all, you and I are just normal breathing living creature. To people out there, keep smiling. Have a little faith and move on. Que sera sera. What will be, will be. Breathe and always remember to never give up in life. Don’t smile when you have zero problems but smile when life is a mess and you are at the verge of crying yet you still figure out ways to carry yourself. In life, when you are crushed and beaten down, 

CRAWL YOURSELF BACK UP.

Remember, success is failure turned inside out. The silver tint of the clouds of doubt. You never can tell how close you are. It may be near when it seems so far. So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit. It’s when things 
seem worse that you must not quit!

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. 
-Helen Keller-