One day honey. One day, we'll only say GOOD NIGHT and no more GOODBYES :')

You got that smile ;

That only Heaven Can Make =)

I pray that God everyday, that you keep that smile :D


Who says? Who says you're not perfect? As far as I'm concerned, no one's perfect? Even each of our fingers and hairs have different lengths too duh! Right?


1. I really feel like screaming right now. I've been working and getting things done from five in the morning and things are just so screwed up. Please, it is for him :'(
2. He once said, "You don't know Raveenaa,if you don't know how important her work is to her".
3. He once said, "You don't know Raveenaa,if you don't know how perfect she wants things she do turned out perfectly."
4. Work in progress! Wanna see the picture? I can't write your full name in the card :O
5. I'm thinking should I decorate the card some more or just give him like that?
6. As in,use highlighter,box up everyone's signature? Are you a plain guy or one who's crazily artistic like me,myself and I?
7. I'm just gonna give it simple cause he's a guy and he doesn't like to complicate stuffs. #OMG 
8. Okay,I need the pink pen! Bloody pink pen. Sureen,I need you. Gosh! Okay. Do I put the note in the middle or clip it to the card?
9. What am I suppose to write on the envelope?
10. I'll put both the note and the tiny book mark in the middle. The big book mark at the side. Be right back,let me keep this stickers.
11. Okay! I'm gonna read the magazine and get more ideas out of it.
Hey! Remind me check the cd's. I gotta get Nips, Crips and yellow Tolberone. How how how? I'm wrapping the chocolates in a purple wrapper.
12. I'm a happy kid! The five cd's work perfectly fine honey!
13. Wrap the chocolates or just put the side there?
14. Green fishnets or soft purple transparent?
15. I don't have a perfect string nor ribbon to tie around the green box. Shuts. Use what? Rubber band? I DON'T HAVE A PERFECT PAPER BAG!
16. Okay, Crabtree and Evelyn or Carlo Rino? I'm alone in room sitting at study desk,humming to #PriceTag. Looking round for a paper bag!
17. Definitely the Crabtree and Evelyn too small for this green box. Carlo Rino one as well. Mother,I need a paperbag! Got coffee cake tomorrow!
18. Tomorrow is the day! I hope he like everything I got him. Goshhh! I'm going casual I guess.
19. This is it. I've just got to get that two stuffs tomorrow. Happy birthday hun. I'll always love you. See you tomorrow. Take care.
20. Good night. Sleeping. Have not been sleeping these past three days. Gosh. After tomorrow, I'll be okay. I'll get through this. Bless me.

Okay, each and everyone of you should really count your blessings right now cause' honestly, I had no intentions of blogging at all about today, the fifth of April. Thanks to that guy in the picture, Aaron, he blogged about today and well, I thought, hey! I SHOULD TOO! So, let me first ask you. Have you looked at someone and thought? Thank God gave me you? I don't care whether it is your parents, siblings, partners or whoever it is, but, the point is, have you thought of it? 

What makes you beautiful? You don't know what makes you beautiful? 

True beauty is inner beauty honey :D

Three weeks! It took me a whole lot of three weeks to freaking figure out what to get for him. Twenty one days man. Like seriously? I was freaking out cause' I was so busy, planning for my solo trip to Vietnam, I was thinking of furniture to get for the new condo, I was rushing to finish my work, I was worried on so many account cause' a student of mine was affected by the heatstroke. Very terrible and very badly. Despite all the facts, I have to push all that thoughts aside and plan this carefully and in most fragile way I could. I swear. Even after knowing him for three years, he is still that mysterious to me. He still would not unlock that barrier he had. Sadly, it takes time to really figure him out.

We found love in this hopeless place. We found love in this hopeless place.

Where's that hopeless place? A pub? A club? 

Okay, I got to praise this author. As you people know, I am a freak when it comes to novel. It is bloody addicting and bloody awesome okay? I read this novel FROM NOTTING HILL WITH LOVE ACTUALLY by this writer, Ali McNamara. It was where this author gave me an idea of how to get his gifts done. So, here's the trick. I sat down and jot all things I know of him :

1. He loves coffee (Starbucks, Dutch Lady, Nescafe)

2. He loves food (especially the mee goreng from Pappa Rich)

3. He loves share markets and investments

4. He loves MONEY! Cause' it makes him happy :)

5. He loves driving XD

6. He loves classic songs :) Michael Buble , Frank Sinatra, Westlife.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

You know what is courage? Courage is being brave to see the one you loved being loved by someone else.

So, what I did was. Here comes the crazy kid. I bought a slice of Tiramisu cake for him with my fave Starbucks drink. Caramel Frappucino. Origamis? I got him cold Nescafe and cold Dutch Lady coffee he loved. I gave him a book mark as well. A four paged letter? It was like writing a letter. It had been five months since I last held a pen? I ended up writing him an essay! I gave him a colourful hourglass? I got him a belated birthday card and got everyone around him to sign a wish for him. I got him twenty over kinds of chocolates. I know, I know. Ice said, he must have saved a kingdom in the past-life to deserve all these. I got him two albums. One Westlife one and the other The Power Of Love. Both original. I burned five cd's and it was all for him. I typed out the song titles. It was all so so crazy man. It took me a total of twelve hours just for the cd's. I bought coloured paper just to type them. I know :) It all took so much energy and effort out of me that you do not wanna be with me when I did those stuffs. Okay, an example, just to print that song titles on the coloured paper? I tear and tore and smashed and crumpled like freaking twenty papers? They looked so un-perfect :( That's why if you see the first part in the blog, the twenty things? I was freaking out cause' that was all my status and my tweets from previous days. Believe me, I pitied my followers :( 

Baby are you down? Down, down. Even if the sky is fallin' down. Down, down (oh)

Are you fucking down?  Down, down. Even if the sky is fallin' down. Down, down (oh)

Okay, so, today came and believed me. I was freaking out.  I sat in Starbucks and Secret Recipe for almost four hours? The clock was ticking away. I would not be describing what happened but the moment he took the gifts off my hands, he was so so touched. The expression on his face was so so priceless. I really don't know how to describe it in words man. All those midnight working hours, all those pissing off moments, all those scaring he might hate the gifts, those sleepless moments was paid off when he finally looked me in the eye and told me, 

THANK YOU SO SO MUCH. YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE IT FOR ME. 

Seriously, that was crazy man, right now. When I am typing this, I am thinking, 

HOW ON EARTH I MANAGED TO FIND ALL THOSE TIMES AND FINISHED THEM UP BY TIME? CRAZY! See, love makes you do the stupidest things :D

 I wanted to grab my stuffs and just walked off there cause I nearly died man. Serious. I nearly died right there and there and he just stop dead and asked me, can I like sent you home? I smiled and climbed into his car. Like, Mother Of God, my fingers don't know how to express these feelings man. I told him about my future plans and he ain't happy about it. But you know me, being the stubborn headed one, I told him, I got things figured out and I don't need him to complicate things anymore. SCREW ME. Why did I even said that?

The stars leaned down to kiss you and I lie awake to miss you.

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.

Only the stars leaned down? The moon never? Pity you :)

So, he was driving and we were talking back about our past. THREE YEARS MAN. THREE YEARS! He was asking me what I remembered most that he told me in those three years. 

I WANTED TO TELL HIM EVERYTHING. OF COURSE I REMEMBER EVERY SINGLE GOD-DAMNED THING YOU TOLD ME. 

Instead, I crapped something that was never even said. G-O-D!

You mean that much to me :') It kinda sucked cause' I never took the effort to let him know how much I liked him instead I told him, you're just my best friend. That bloody friend-zone. I know :'( He and I would never have a future together. He and I both think it is impossible. Well, he thinks age gap is an issue. Plus, So, I don't know. I shall leave everything to fate. He dropped me off and we didn't wanna say goodbye but I just pushed the door opened with all my might and walked and never turned back. Gosh, he must have seen those gifts by now, so I really do hope he loves them. What do you think? Would you love them if you're him? Please say yes? That's about it for now. I'm bloody tired and lazy to crack my head any longer :) So, peace and love! Xoxo.

I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me?

Dave Days is just the perfect boyfriend man, he skates, sings and dances :) Plus,

HE'S CUTE! :D Check this out!

Last Friday Night ; T.G.I.F 

I spent so much money on someone who doesn't even like me back. Spent so much time and effort. Gosh! But, it was all worth it when I got to see that smile. That satisfaction I get was priceless. Damn tiring to keep you happy but I'm trying my best. God, I don't really ask much from you, but he is a keeper. So, honestly, by hook or by crook, I'm keeping him :')