Who am I to kid? I've lost you.
I've lost you forever.
"No matter what challenges that keeps us apart,
we'll always find a way back to each other".
Well, speak of the devil. Hello I am back. Yeps, your blogger is back after exactly two months. Well, here's one thing I would wanna tell you readers. So sorry I have been away. Seriously. I've been so busy I don't wanna talk about it. I don't feel like it. Been so moody these days about events like this and I have to just learn to let it go seriously. I have to learn that no matter what I do, it would never be good enough in her eyes. So screw it. I give up. I give in. Seriously I am done. I am done. Who am I to kid? My mood get so screwed up over tiny things and that is it. I might
as well learn to let it go and enjoy life as it is.
"I choose to stay with him for all the things he's done right. Not for the one thing he has done wrong.
I choose to forgive him".
I think what killed me the most would be the thought that I had earlier. That we were in this together seriously. Having all these problems and I see you walking away from me. What have I ever done to have you walk away without even turning back to catch a glimpse of look at me? What can I ever do to have you stay? You say things to me like be brave and that you think I can handle all sorts of stuffs like this alone. You always say I am the capable one.
That I don't need you.
tell yourself it's time to walk away."
Everything that happened to my family
.
Everything that happened to my mum. My
siblings. Where were you when I needed you
most? You went crawling back to her. After
all talks, after all emotional breakdowns
,
after all late night talks, after all the time
wasted, you decided to opt for her because
she has always beaten me in the first place.
After all boys always opt for the Prom
Queen and not the girl next door, do they?
Sincerely, it is alright. I would be okay. I
promise you this. Everything to be okay.
If we were meant to be together, we would.
I wouldn't back down. And today I find
myself smiling again. I am okay. Seriously at
the very least I am moving on. I am able to
dance through the hallways again. I am
happy again. I don't need you, seriously I
don't. Don't come back with all that crap
that you are happy for me that my life is
perfect without you in it. Have you ever
tried to removed a swollen tooth? My dentist
once told me that letting go is like
pulling a tooth. When it was pulled out, you
were relieved, but how many times does
your tongue run itself over the spot where
the tooth was? Probably a hundred times a
day. Just because it wasn't hurting you
doesn't mean you didn't notice it. It leaves a
gap and sometimes you see yourself missing
it terribly. It's going to take a while, but it
takes time. Should you have kept the tooth?
No, because it was causing you too much
pain. Therefore, move on and let go.
It's not fair? I see the way you look at her.
I know, because you used to look at me that way.
I am pretty excited because I've got these birthday presents planning going on again after two years not meeting him. So wish me luck. Next blog post is going to be about all of it. So glad that I have got things going on again. You peeps must have no idea how much I miss this guy right here, right now.
But he's always in my heart thou.
That I don't need you.
Life is all about moments of impact and how they changed our lives forever. But what if one day
you could no longer remember any of them?
Here is a question to you. Why did you do it? Make me feel all worthy that night and then walk off the next day? You are probably the only person on planet Earth that can make me feel so unwanted. It is like you toyed with my feelings from day one. It was never love. It was never meant to be. You kid me with your friendship. I fell for all your stupid words. It sincerely hurts the most when the person who made you feel special yesterday, makes you feel so unwanted today seriously :'(
Is this all a joke to you, seriously? :(
"How do you look at the one you love and
tell yourself it's time to walk away."
Everything that happened to my family
.
Everything that happened to my mum. My
siblings. Where were you when I needed you
most? You went crawling back to her. After
all talks, after all emotional breakdowns
,
after all late night talks, after all the time
wasted, you decided to opt for her because
she has always beaten me in the first place.
After all boys always opt for the Prom
Queen and not the girl next door, do they?
Sincerely, it is alright. I would be okay. I
promise you this. Everything to be okay.
I wouldn't back down. And today I find
myself smiling again. I am okay. Seriously at
the very least I am moving on. I am able to
dance through the hallways again. I am
happy again. I don't need you, seriously I
don't. Don't come back with all that crap
that you are happy for me that my life is
perfect without you in it. Have you ever
tried to removed a swollen tooth? My dentist
once told me that letting go is like
pulling a tooth. When it was pulled out, you
were relieved, but how many times does
your tongue run itself over the spot where
the tooth was? Probably a hundred times a
day. Just because it wasn't hurting you
doesn't mean you didn't notice it. It leaves a
gap and sometimes you see yourself missing
it terribly. It's going to take a while, but it
takes time. Should you have kept the tooth?
No, because it was causing you too much
pain. Therefore, move on and let go.
I know, because you used to look at me that way.
I am pretty excited because I've got these birthday presents planning going on again after two years not meeting him. So wish me luck. Next blog post is going to be about all of it. So glad that I have got things going on again. You peeps must have no idea how much I miss this guy right here, right now.
But he's always in my heart thou.
I read this novel almost five years ago in school and I remembered crying for almost two nights in high school because Cecelia Ahern is so perfect describing a husband who died cause of brain tumor yet he actually planned ahead to write love letters to his wife day by day to help her move on in life.
I fell in love with the movie, probably because Gerard Butler starred in it. So I rate this 8/10 <3 Because the movie was that perfect seriously <3 My favourite scene in the whole movie would definitely be the starting part. This scene, the waking up part <3
Purple line quotes are fully inspired by the movie, The Vow. Been rewatching so many movies these days. Super proud. That is all for now!
Till' next time!
Anyeonggg! :)
#Nowplaying
Back From The Dead ;
Skylar Grey <3
